I Choose Defeat

[Part: One]

A/N: This is how Gee looks^^^(pretty much danger days!gee) Frank doesn't have a specific appearance but I'd like to think of him like danger days/current looking Frank!. Thanks for reading! I really appreciate it!

TW::: A little Depressing/self loathing thoughts

Gee had been the best little boy he could have possibly been, he did all his chores--and more-- he cleaned up every speck of dust in the house and did everything he could think of that might make his daddy happy. Him and his daddy had hit a little bit of a 'dry spell' these past few weeks so he wanted to make up the missed time by being the best little boy ever!

I wonder when daddy's gonna come home.

Knowing That Gerard would probably get a reward for all his hard work, he decided to take a shower and shave. That way his skin can be soft and clean just for his daddy. When he got out of the shower he blow dried his hair, combed it, and put on his best outfit-including his choker-. His outfit consisted of black boots, with a black mini skirt, lace panties, and a nice black blouse. He knew that black was his daddy's favorite color so he didn't mind the lack of festivity in his outfit, as long as it would make his daddy happy. Right now, that's all he cared about.

It had been two or three hours passed Gees bed time and his daddy still wasn't home, he was going to call Frankie to see what time he would be here, but he didn't want to bother him. Especially with how busy he had been lately. Lost in thought he didn't here the door click.

Gees head immediately bounced up when he heard stumbling form the living room, he got off the dining room chair and made his way to peek out from the corner when he heard two voices. One was giggling and the other was whispering lowly.

"Oh baby, you look so pretty tonight"

Gerard instantly recognized that as his daddy's voice and was about to pop out when he heard someone else,

"Honey, your making me blush!"

Honey? What? Frank never let Gerard call him any of those pet names, it was either daddy or Frankie. If Gee would have known that Frank was uncomfortable with this lifestyle then he would have stopped it immediately.

He heard another high-pitched giggle and instantly realized who the other person was.

His heart felt like it was being teared from his body.

It was a girl.

Not any girl, but

Franks ex-girlfriend, Jamia.

Gee had known that Frank and Jamia dated throughout Highschool but soon broke up because He had met Gee. Not wanting to jump to any crazy conclusions, Gerard decided to hear the conversation out. Maybe he's thinking wrong. God he hopes so. When it suddenly became quiet, Gerard peeked his head a little more. Still with no sight of what was going on, Gee decided to just tip-toe out of the dining room and into the Living room, just to get a clear idea.

That was probably the worst mistake he had ever made.

Jamia and Frank were on the couch,

Full blown making out.

Gee wanted to scream, he wanted to shout. He did neither of those things, instead, he quietly fell to his knees. Tears flowing down his face like a waterfall, he really should have known. Frank had been coming 'late' for the past few days. Apparently, the quiet 'thump' made by Gees fall was enough to bring them out of their make out session and onto where the noise came from.

Gee looked up, while doing so he made instant eye-contact with Frank himself. Not being able to hold back, he let out a choked sob and ran to their--or his--room as fast as he could, taking out the nearest suitcase. He quickly packed all his things. His skirts, shirts, pacifiers, and even his stuffies. Grabbing the luggage he made his way out of the house hearing a faint 'Gee, wait!' But not wanting to listen to it.

By the time Gee had made it to the end of the block he had already broken down, he was a goner. Without his daddy he wouldn't ever make it. So he decided to make a decision, he took out his cellphone and called the only other person he could trust fully,

Bert.

He anxiously pressed on his contact and waited for him to pick up, after about three rings it finally happened.

"Gee, baby what's wrong?"

"B-be-Bert, Fr-Frank cheated."

Gee let out another pathetic sob, once he did that Bert was scared. Bert told him to stay where he was and he would pick him up shortly. Gerard and Bert had broken up right after Gee and Frank had met. They ended on peaceful terms, which is why Gee was able to call him right now.

"Don't worry, I'm on my way. If Frank tries to look for you, hide, scream, do anything to get him away from you. He doesn't deserve someone as perfect as you."

Gee was now full on sobbing on the sidewalk, he still couldn't believe what was happening. Yeah, he understood that Frank might have been stressed out and needed to have some 'fun' but why would he cheat? How long had he been cheating? Did he ever even break up with Jamia? Or was that all a lie to fool Gerard?

Gee honestly thought that everything had been going perfectly fine, he was obviously wrong. Continuing to let out his sobs, Gee heard a car horn. Wow, Frank didn't even go after him. He looked up and was met with Berts black BMW, thank god, he couldn't stay here for much longer. Grabbing his belongings he quickly loaded himself in the car.

He knew he couldn't do anything about Frank, if Frank truly cared for him then he would've ran after him. But that was not the case, he saw Gerard and just continued with Jamia. It's okay, he should've seen it coming.

You see, even in the beginning of their relationship Gee had always had doubtful thoughts haunting his mind. Gerard had always knew that he would never be good enough for someone like Frank. Frank deserves the world and Gerard just couldn't offer that. So he didn't blame him for finding someone else. It probably wasn't that hard, Gerard wasn't what you call 'a catch'.

Gerard decided to do one last thing before he left, he grabbed his phone and texted Frank

Gee: I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for all those years you had to put up with me, even if it was obvious that you didn't really want to. I'm sorry for forcing you into a lifestyle that you weren't comfortable in. I'm so sorry. I hope that whoever you're with now, whether it be Jamia, or someone else, gives you everything you ask for and more. I hope that you find the one you were looking for, even if that wasn't me. I hope you know that I'll forever love you. I have to go now.

Until next time,

Xoxo, Gee.

A/N: Sorry if this wasn't good, I'm not the best at writing but I try! Anyways I might make a part two, if think I should please comment or vote!!! This really just came in my head in the middle of the day and I have an idea for what part two would be about but I'm not to sure if I want to make it yet. Thank you for reading!

xoxogee