I Need You

I Need You 3

I Need You

Chapter 3

[9:47 pm]

I try to sleep, but I just can't. It's just to much to handle, I hate life! Why did I have to get stuck with this messed up family, and then I see all these other people with perfect families, like with Niall, he has a perfect family, a perfect girlfriend, a perfect face, a perfect personality, he is just perfect! And then I look at my family and I just want to cry, I can't trust nobody at school, I can't tell anybody about my troubles. I wish I had a friend like that, I did at one point, I told everything to her, but she stabbed me in the back, stole my boyfriend, and told everybody my secrets, I was a laughing stalk. Now she is dating Nathan, ugh! I wish he was still my boyfriend but he went for Courtney. I wish I was a popular, I wish I had friends, but you always wish for something but you never get it, you have to work for it. Well I don't know how I would work for that spot of popularity, why do I want to be popular anyway all there will be are fake bitches that I can't trust, where is that gonna take me? Nowhere! I guess I will stick with talking to my dog, he has no one to tell so I only trust him. Am I that much of a loner? UGH!!! I don't know what I am gonna do with my life. I guess I will just eat, sleep, and wake up. Well, there is not much to think about now, I have to go to bed though, it's already 11:05pm and it feels like just a second ago it was 9:47pm, time goes by fast when you talk to yourself, sadly to say.