I never knew Tony would have held this against me for so long, yet I didn't hate him. One reason being that, we barely knew each other anyways.
But now that he and a few people I met today changed the whole idea of me having at least a few friends, as someone once said when a door closes one opens......
I think thats how it went, right.... I can't remember.
So Tony and I sat in his car, driving quietly to our destination.
"Want to talk? Or-" I closed my eyes taking in the smooth strumming of the music blurring through the radio.
"C-can we, please talk at the park" I shakingly replied back, leaning my head on the backseat, my eyes still closed.
"Sure" I heard Tony say back in a soft tone. I was still trying to put two and two together yet, that wasn't a simple question to answer.
The ride to the park was miner and quite, it was only the sounds of Tonys and I's breathing that filled the car, along with the music that covered the background perfectly. It was around 3:35pm, so the ride was pretty long considering traffic and what not.
When we got to the park, I slowly opened my eyes taking in the sight of the park, it was simple yet it had so many memories.
I cut my gaze from the park and opened the passenger door, hopping out to see Tony standing in the front of his car. I smiled weakly at him. He did the same, before mentioning me to follow him.
So I did, Tony turned in the opposite direction, leading the both of us to a set of swings, he sat on one and I did the same. I looked down at my hands knowing that Tony was staring at me, finding the words to explain this she situation.
"Where would you like me to start?" I started up at Tony from my swing, and pressed my lips together, swallowing hard.
"From the beginning" I replied back softly, I looked down at my hands again biting my bottom lip.
"About these so called tapes, about what Justin did. About Clay and you knowing about them, and about me not being on one... I want answers on what the hell are these damn tapes" I looked at Tony my eyes welling in tears.
"Hannah, Hannah how does she come into this, Tony. Kimberly mention her and thes-these tapes, what was she lying about" I shoved my hands in my hair, putting my elbows on my thighs and fell confused.
"What did Justin do?" I whispered my head lightly turned towards Tony, my head laying on my right hand.
Tony sat there his brown eyes burning into my green ones.
He took in a deep breath before slowly leaning towards me, his knees hitting the bark as he kneeled before me.
His left hand landing on my right knee, before he grabbed my arm, and softly trailed his hand down to my hand, it dreaded my breath as he did so.
He lightly smiled up at me, his eyes also welling with tears.
"This is the truth, and right here in this moment I will not lie to you" Tony whispered to me, I covered my mouth with my left hand it muffling a small set of sobs.
"Are you sure you want to hear this?" Tony asked his voice cracking, my breath hitched a bit but I didn't hesitate to nod quickly at Tony.
"H-Hannah had these tapes.."Tony trailed out his hand slipping from mine, his hands landing on his head as he clenched his jaw, and took in a hitching breath.
"There were 13 of them" I clenched my jaw at what was about to come.
"Each tape, considered a person.... They would hold a reason why, she h-" I finally knew what Tony was trying to say, my heart almost ran dry and emotionless.
"She killed herself" I whispered my eyes having some sort of interest on Tony's hands, I didn't realize that he even held mine. I felt crazy that I wasn't crying. That I didn't even have any sort of, hurting feeling anymore I was numb.
Tony, squeezed my hands for my attention but I didn't budge.
"Marie?" He whispered in a soft tone, I didn't answer.
"And Justin was a reason why she did it?" I said a tear slipping from my left eye, my mind the flicker to a certain someone or should I say two certain someone's.
"And Kimberly.... " I said slowly, my eyes finally meeting Tony's soft worried eyes.
"And Clay too" I said Tonys mouth gapped, at me. I clenched my jaw. Sniffling.
I looked down at Tony.
"I need to listen to these tapes Tony" I whispered Tony, seemed to focused on my awful, look now. I probably looked horrible.
Tony hesitantly looked down at our hands, I pulled him closer too me our faces touching only mildly, his eyes flicker up to mine, I heavily took in a sharp breath. My head falling to stare down at our hands, Tonys head leaning on mine.
"P-please Tony I need answers" I sobbed, I felt Tonys hands slip from my hands, and his arms softly wrapped around my waist to my back, I wrapped my arms around his neck. Falling from the swing, before I was on my knees too.
We just kneeled there hugging each other, it was a quick and soft embrace.
I heard Tony sigh, lightly in my hair, I took in short breaths as I took this all in.
From that moment onward I knew my heart wasn't cold anymore, I was happy enough to have someone else to lean on.
It hurt that I didn't have a girl to lean on, but Tony sort of helped me to believe that I did have someone to lean on, other then Clay.
Someone to look up to, someone to trust, someone to love...
But we all knew that loving Tony was the last thing I'd do.......
