Thoughts From The Heart

Anymore

Used to be the one, I intended to spend the rest of my life with.

But I was young, crazy, so many different influences.

For some reason I was so damn sure about you.

That we would work, regardless of the situation, the obstacles.

Felt like we faced the world together in the short span of 2 years and then some.

Then perfect me, messed it up and thought I could fix it with time.

I gave you space, you saw it as me moving on.
Your past perfect thing, trying to forget about you.

Little did you know this wasn't the case.

"Used to have it all back then baby"
Finally I spoke up, only to find a new you.

Not physically, but your mentality. Fingers got pointed at me. I took the blame.
Sitting down asking myself what have I done.
Similiar to what you were doing in the 2 months that had passed.
But if only you knew at the time.
It wasn't you but me.

But how did we get to "Anymore" ?
Messing with each others thoughts, til words turned in arguments.
You aggressive, me passive.

"This drama's getting old, need to let it go. Different episode, same old show."
Over time thats what it was.

"You were like a drug had me wavy."
But I don't feel the buzz no more baby.
The stress got me burned out and it affected the feelings what were left over.

"So you don't need to call anymore, don't fuck with you at all anymore. You don't need to stall anymore. We don't keep in touch anymore. Cause we ain't in love anymore" ~ E.Mai