later the ext day i went to the hospital vomiting them all up and they thought it was just stomach infection i went to school and the people i associated with and they asked me where i was for the past three days and i said at home they asked why and i said none of your business and later i got in a fight with one of my "friends " and they kicked me out of their group and i faced depression again and i had a friend named well shes not my friend anymore lets call her l so l was there for me in till the beginning of April its may i also had three other friends [that are still my friends ] lets call them a,s,and e,so when left our group of a,s,e,c[c is me ]and l she left and now a days i feel like if i lose a,s,or e im gonna snap if i lose a i defendantly know theres no hope left first chance im no longer in life ill become ether ill become so deppresed ill die of depression or ill kill myself now i still have friends in the group one of witch ive known since 4th grade im in sixth and one who moved and moved and came back lets call the lid eri well their still my still my friends and eri some times sits with me at lunch and once he asked me to sit with him at the groups table and he didnt know that they ignored me and frankly i told him why i didnt sit or talk or even associate with them and is till remember how many friends i had i had 14 friends now i only have 5 i lost 9 friends and ya know what i do blame this on some one Jordan when ever she was hungry give jordan your food when some one else is hungry their personal friends would give them some thing and we [ my group of classes] have switches and we rotated and every one of my "friends" left m swich and then i lost my social life , my dignity and the way that i got respected now i constantly get bullied and my secrets get told and now im not even shour if i can turn the corner and my family usualy cries at movies last time i cried to a movie or book was in september when i met these people and what they do people ask me why im so clumsy or not funny but the truth is i just want some one to smile when i cant and for some one to laugh so i see i ccan and the fact is that im like a dog, wounded on the streets the only way to get better is for animal controll to come , some one picks me up off the streets , or i die and animal controll hasn't came no one passes me or gives me pity so im left to rot with no one able to come for me my five friends ive tried to keep them as far away from my "friends" as posible
and none can come into this world and help me so im stuck their . to my thughts and i think " the world im in sucks just let me die so i can move to a new one or stay in the middlr and to watch over my friends ,"
dont let some one get to you dont let their actions egt to you and dont follow them if someone you know is cutting tell a teacher or tell their parens and that dosnt just go for cutting
for any thing that could hurt thembecause i dontyou to hsve the scars that i have and the bad friend i was to jordan and well new person s to s and well to every one i knew that did this if any of you find this im sorry and remember the time when i was your friend and the loner group
people that i didn't say i put first letter or part name
L= lesly
lid=lydia
eri= eric
c=chloe
A=alexis
s=sam
e=emily
and last but not least forever in my heart and me hopefully forever in hers
s=seirra ;]
