Parud: Sealed With A KISS...

Chapter 43

Rudra POV

Its almost 15 hours since I threw Parvati out of my room. I don't know what got over me when I saw her dancing with Viraaj and when Janvi linked her with Aman. Eewww its disgusting to link Parvati's name with Aman. They are nothing more than just good friends. Aman takes her as a great friend and I know how he feels about her but then this Viraaj is someone I can never trust. But the problem is I can't even tell Parvati about him, mainly because she might not believe me and think that its only because I am jealous of him but surely thats not the case. Or if she do believe me then she will leave this job and that is something I wont like. Its not only about she leaving her job because of a man like Viraaj, I somewhere fear that after knowing the truth she will not trust anyone so easily. Rajan's is surely a big boost for her career but how will I tell Parvati that her working with Viraaj have my own hidden motives and that is why I suggested her name for this job. Oh God, it hurts me bad when I remember how for my own sake I got her into this mess. But now when I see everything happening according to my way, I can't bare the pain of guilt. I never thought I would get to close to her in such short time. Maybe because I knew it is my fault that I use to feel pity and protective about her. Parvati is such an innocent girl which I didnt know until I saw her on the first day of new job how she was jumping with joy and even greeted the guards on the entrance. Until that I thought she is very out spoken and bold. Even during her interview she proved how confident she is but then when she tripped on me in the elevator and then on the street, saying me thank you and sorry. Damn I understood that she is just so clumsy and stupid just like every other girl. My inner self was fighting a war with me since then for putting her in all this which she have no idea about. But then when I saw her that night in the rain hiding her fear from me just to keep her dignity, I felt that she is a strong person and knows how to deal with things and after that day my respect for her just kept growing.

Everytime I see her my soul scolds me so bad. But now I threw her out of my room. What must she be thinking? First I dont know why I always get so close to her and then I feel guilty. The way I forced her to dance and her eyes showed the emotions so clear, its just unbearable.

I kept thinking about her and opened her diary to read and feel even smaller from inside. Her writing is heart touching and it reminds me of how I use to love writing myself but could never show it to the world. She makes me realise how far I have come from my past. Oh no, this is getting very difficult for me. Suddenly I see the date on the cover page and remember that tomorrow is her birthday. Oh no.. I just fought with her a day before her birthday. She must be missing her family and friends already. I told her uncle and aunt that I shall take care of her and now I am sitting in my room without even checking on her. Dammit...

Just then I thought to call her to meet and quickly ring her room but she is not picking. After inquiring I got to know that she went to the Aisle site meeting. Shit, I missed that as well. How can I be so careless? I curse myself and then decide to write a small note for her and gave it to the staff to hand it over to Parvati, ones she come back. I cant even go to the site now, its already 5pm and the meeting must be over. I called Aman and he informed that everyone is coming back in an hour now.

Janvi called me quite sometimes but I didnt pick her calls or replied to the messages. She even came to my suite but I was in no mood to meet anyone so I didnt let her in. I dont know I was being so distemper since the last time I met Parvati. She just wanted to talk to me about that Anamika. Waoh.. I mean how can she only think about Anamika's job when she clearly know that I am upset with her and Viraaj being together. When will she ever understand me? Or may be I am just not making her see the side of me? Am I playing with her emotions? Oh man... I think I should better stay away from her but then it just seems impossible to do that. Yesterday also in that blue dress she was looking so radiant and gorgeous. The moment I saw her I was completely stunned by her beauty.