Waiting (Alex Turner Fan Fiction)

Bed

I stared at the door knowing the boy I've dreamt of loving was standing right outside. If i let him in he'd see me cry, if i didn't i could mess things up. What if i let him in and i said the wrong thing? What if he did? I didn't want him to leave, it was too soon. I wanted to spend so much longer with him. He made me feel happy. 

I decided to let him in. "Come in," I said after laying down and hugging my pillow. My face was buried into it so he couldn't see my tear and makeup stained face. How attractive, right?

Alex rushed in and sat next to me on the bed. His hand rubbed my back as I tried not to cry. How pathetic. I just fucking met him. But I felt something between us. It was special. I hoped he felt it too. How could he not? Did he do this with other girls? The thought made me feel sick to my stomach.

"Darlin.." Alex started. I heard him sigh and take his shoes off. I felt him lay down in front of me. He kissed the top of my head and kept his lips there for a few seconds. When they moved, I peeked at him. He looked so sad, his eyes were just examing me as if they were searching my skin for the right words to say. I sniffled and hid my face again. I felt his hand rubbing my side as he began to speak again. "I'm so sorry, I didn't know how to tell you. I didn't know if I should wait until after tonight or tell you straight up. I guess I was worried you wouldn't want to be around me if you knew I was leaving soon. I wanted to spend time with you."

Those words made my heart race and I lifted my head up and wiped my face. His eyes scanned my face. I could tell he was trying to read me. I just laid so I was facing him and our faces were level. We stayed silent for a little. I sniffled and he kissed my nose making me smile. He wiped the tear that was running down my cheek away. He shook his head and told me hes sorry. I just hugged him and he held me tightly. I closed my eyes as he put his hand on the small of my back and pulled me against him. I'd never felt safer. He made everything feel better. 

"Please don't forget about me," I whispered into his ear. I could feel him hold me tighter when my voice cracked, filled with pain. 

He kissed my neck softly, "I won't, Lucy, I won't. I'll come back for you. Don't worry." 

I pulled back from the hug and looked into his eyes before planting a kiss on his lips. It was filled with longing, lust, passion. I wanted to kiss him for hours, but I felt better just being held by him.

"Will you stay awhile?" I asked looking into his eyes. He nodded kissing my forehead.

Alex's P.O.V.

She fell asleep in my arms, so peaceful when she sleeps. I ran my fingers along her skin and kissed her head. Her skin was so soft and beautiful I found shapes in the few freckles she had among her arms. I hoped after this night I'd have the chance to do it again. I noticed it was starting to get late, it was almost 11. I decided to stay and hopefully that was the right choice. I didn't want her to think I liked her too much. I did, though, I liked her so much. She made the pressures of being me go away. All the pressure to be perfect, to stay out of trouble, to always be writing. I was usually pretty good at not letting them get to me, but with the success of this new album its been difficult. But everything felt peaceful with her. 

I felt myself getting tired. Should i fall asleep with her? On the floor? On the couch? I didn't want her parents to hate me. As I was trying to decide, her father walked in the room. I was facing the door and propped my head up on my hand. 

"Hey L-" he started, but stopped when I signaled to him that she was sleeping. He nodded and gestured for me to join him in the hallway. Here we go. I slowly and gently moved my arm out from under her and kissed her head. I pulled the blanket over her tiny figure, she was like a little doll. 

I walked out to the hallway and quietly shut the door behind me.

"You planning on staying the night?" her father asked me. Shit what do I say?

"Uh, y-yeah. If thats okay? If not I can just get my coat from Lucy's room and go?" I asked hoping he would let me stay. 

He shook his head and touched my arm, "son, its okay you can stay. You seem like a nice boy; besides Lucy would kill me if she found out I asked you to leave." He and I both chuckled. "Would you like something more comfortable to sleep in?" 

I nodded, "yeah, that'd be great." 

He told me to stay put and went off to his room. I looked around their living room at the pictures of their family. Lucy had always been a little angel. Her mother and father really seemed to love her. 

Her dad came back in with a shirt and a pair of shorts. I took them from him and thanked him. 

I made my way back to Lucy's room and slipped on her father's clothes. Oddly, I felt comfortable changing in front of her. She was fast asleep still, but I decided to sleep on the couch to get on the good side of her parents. I whispered goodnight into her ear and kissed her beautiful cheek. I grabbed an extra pillow from her bed before making my way back to the living room to sleep on what I hoped to be a comfortable couch.

It wasn't horrible, but it wasn't great. It made me feel better knowing that I was at Lucy's still. I'm glad we decided to take a break in such a simple place. Who'd of thought I'd find a lovely girl in Indiana? 

In the middle of the night I heard something in Lucy's room. Before investigating, I sat up and stared in its direction. I couldn't figure out what it was. When I thought I heard her crying I decided to go and check on her.