Define Me // Louis Tomlinson

Day 27.

"Melody?" I hear someone say as I'm shaken. I groan and slowly open my eyes only to meet Louis' worried ones.

I've fallen as sleep on his doorstep.

"Come inside, will you? It's one in the morning for fuck's sake."

Once we're inside, I grab Louis' hand and drag him to the living room, I came here for one reason and one reason only.

"I know you probably hate me now," I say and watch his face carefully.

I sigh when he doesn't answer. "I think it's time you know the truth." I hesitantly say.

"What truth?"

"I am the worst person you have ever met, I don't even deserve to be classified as a human being. Listen, when my parents died at the bombing, I was there, I was physically hurt. Damn I almost died and I wish I would have. My leg was completely blown off! It's not part of my body anymore, this is a fake! My skull was burned, I have no hair at all, this is a wig. I can't have children either, I'm completely useless. I have no family, I have no future, I have no one because I've lost the only person who actually cared about me. Louis, I'm in love with you. I love you more than Gus ever loved Hazel, but I can't do this to you. You deserve to be with someone who has beautiful hair, that it's actually theirs, you deserve to have beautiful children that are your own, not adopted. You deserve someone who has all their body parts, someone who looks like a human being and not like an alien with burn scars all over their head. I never believed in love until I met you, you've made me see the good in life and the bad, which I mostly consist of. You made me see the light I never saw even when my life was going absolutely perfect, but you also made me realize I am worthless, and I have ruined your life and for that I will never be at peace, even when I die. Thank you, Louis, thank you for defining me."