Yuri x Viktor Crazy in Love

Yuri

Hey guys...It's me Yuri...Um you'll be following me consider....You know what just read the chapter and you'll find okay.

3 Days Later
I haven't been able to sleep for days. I can't stop thinking about Viktor...and what happened...I can't stop but feel responsible for it all. Everyone says it's not my fault. I lie and say 'you're right'. I'm such an idiot. I haven't talked to Samantha in days either. She keeps blowing up my phone with text messages and phone calls. I never answer her back. I wonder what happened with Viktor? Why did he leave once I came home? I know he loves me...I don't know what triggered him.
There was a knock on my door. "Yes?" I quietly called out. "Yuri Sam's at the door and she wants to talk with you." It was my mother. I sighed and pulled myself out of bed. I felt so weak. I haven't eaten in days or done anything else but cry and sleep. I just feel so disgusting, I look like it too. I walked down the stairs and saw Samantha sitting on the couch.
"Yuri!" She jumped from the couch, ran over to me and gave me a hug.
"Oh hey Sam..." I didn't hug her back. I just looked dead.
"You look awful! You need food and a shower now." She grabbed my hand and started to drag me into the kitchen.
"I can't eat..." I pulled my hand away. "I don't desvere it..."
"Of course you do!"
"No I don't Sam...Not after what happened to Viktor."
She rolled her eyes, "Who cares what happened to him."
That made me angry "Who cares?...Who cares?! I fucking care! Viktor's my best friend! And...and I-I..." I bit my lip and tried to hold back my tears but no use.
"Don't tell me! You love him?! Don't you?!" She screamed at me.
"And what if I do?!" I screamed back at her.
She got pissed, she raised her hand and slapped me across my face."How dare you scream at me! I'm a lady! Show some respect!"
"A lady?...A lady?! You're not a lady! You're just a rude bitch!"
Her eyes widen when I said that. "Fine! If I'm such a rude bitch then I want you to delete my number and never talk to me again!"
"That's fine by me! Now get the fuck out of my house!"
She left, slamming the door behind her. What come over me? I'm not like this. I have no confident to act this way. It was probably because of what she said about Viktor. That triggered me. Do I have feelings for Viktor as well? Did it take me almost losing him to make me realize this?

Viktor.....