Caught Between Twins.

Chapter 4: Finn, Finn. The Better Twin.

Erin's Point of View:

I woke up, Whoa... That was the weirdest dream, I've ever dreamed of ! Recently, I just dreamed of Jack and Finn taking me out to dates and i was actually enjoying them and not worrying about what the consequences would be. Everytime i would dream about something or someone, it'd feel like i didn't breathe at the time when i was dreaming and the time that i was actually in the dream but... it gets weirder than that, I can actually feel the weather in my dreams, wether its hot or cold, i could feel it... and that's why sometimes... i thought they were real like today, everything in my dream was so... detailed. Eventhough i felt like i didn't breathe, In the morning it feels like my chest is lighter than usual, it felt like something heavy was taken away from my chest.

I sat up on my bed, My leg and arm doesn't hurt that much anymore since i've been resting and i didn't do much since the last few days. I stretched my arms, yawning. I got up from my bed and went to the balcony, somehow... I left my guitar there and luckily, it didn't rain or else my guitar will get crack because obviously, my guitar is made up of wood which would swell if it got drenched in the rain and when it swells, the finish would eventually crack and we don't want that to happen now... Do we ?

I sat on the little white chair near the edge of the balcony, where i would usually sit at and just play a few songs on my guitar, not really in the mood to sing since the birds are chirping and it was quite relaxing, Its a sunny day today which is usually rare if you live in london... you should know that but the breeze is quite cold and its very refreshing. I looked around seeing a few people walking down the street, I didn't get any calls from my Tour Manager, I was expecting that he'd call me sooner or later since its been a few weeks since my Album was released on itunes and is now #21 on the hit charts and i'm really proud of that, It may not be #1 but still... its still a good start for me and my career.

I noticed that Jack was right down at the garden, My heart pumped faster... Darn it. This is because of the dream that i had about him and Finn, My heart pumped faster and faster by the minute and its kind of making me a bit anxious and i don't like feeling that way, It gets me frustrated and i can't stop roaming around or even stop fumbling with my thumbs and now I'm actually fumbling with my thumbs, through my frustration... i tried to stop doing it and now, i moved onto pulling my hair. Why does this have to happen ?

"Erin ?" Jack said, looking up at me from down below

I slowly moved away from the edge so, that Jack would just think that he had just saw something on the balcony "Erin ?" He repeated calling my name, he was still standing there looking up at the balcony, trying to find me, eagerly wanting to hear my response

I walked back a bit and waited for him to go back inside the house and luckily, He did. I sighed in relief, Its really frustating why i had to dream about them like that and it makes me feel really weird because... i didn't event thought of them that way and i didn't really expect them to even like me that way. They say that love will do horrible things to you. Yes, i haven't loved someone in my entire life and its kinda weird since all my friends had fallen in love with someone, they got to experience it and they told me stories about it so, i have an idea on what to expect when i finally found the one... but i bet that it'd take me a long time to find the one who'd put up with me through thick and thin.

I continue to gaze around and thought I didn't hear Finn's voice, He'd wonder why his twin brother would call my name outside the house... That's quite odd, you know ? A pretty Linnet bird, it landed on the rails on the edge of the balcony, it tilted its head as it still looked at me. I chuckled and slowly walked up to it, It chirped cheerfully when i got closer to it, I softly stroked its wings and it chirped once more, "What a pretty bird..." I cooed to it softly whilst continuing to stroke its wings