Caught Between Twins.

Chapter 11: My Nightingale.

Erin's Point of View: 

           Today, I'm in the Backstage, Getting ready for today's Set. Its been 5 months since i left the Twins and the Girls back at the Manor in France and a few weeks from now, Tour will be most likely Over and our last Stop is actually back at California which is pretty Convenient since our Venue is quite close to my House. The past few Months, The girls had been calling me and Skyping me quite Frequently to check up on How i'm doing and Stuff and they keep on Bugging me to call Finn, to Check if he's Okay...  I didn't call or texted him since i know he's doing way more than Okay, The girls said he's been pretty Gloomy and Depressed eversince i left but in Reality, When i checked up on his Instagram; It looks like he's having the Time of his life. He's been going out to Clubs, Drinking, Someone even caught him Smoke a Cigarette and the worst thing that i ever seen him do was wrapping his Arms around a Girl's waist but its not just One girl but there are thousands and thousands of Pictures with him and a Girl Kissing, Hugging and just basically Eating each other's faces, Is Going out and Flirting with girls, A sign of Depression ? I think not. 
I sighed as i looked at Myself in the mirror, I was currently wearing a Black Shirt, Some skinny Jeans and my Black Dm's. I don't know why but i Decided to Draw on myself, I was a tad bit Conscious of the little Fact that i'am somewhat the Only Artist aboard on Warped Tour that doesn't have any Tattoos, So, This happened... Trying to fit in and all. I'm quite Disappointed with Finn, I know i don't have any Right to and i know that i kept some things from him but i can't help but to feel that way... Most Importantly when a Certain thought kept bothering me for the past few Weeks; Did that Kiss even meant Anything to him at all ?  

I made a few Friends on tour like Lights, Sierra Kusterbeck, Cassadee Pope. Hayley actually came to see me at one point on Tour, She visited me and watched me Play and Stuff, She was really really Pumped up when i told her that my First ever Album was a Success and she was Glad that i'm finally getting my Head Start on my Music. I was a bit Shy on talking to Other Artists like me on Tour but after a Few days i kinda got the Hang of it Thanks to Jenna, Taylor, Kellin and Vic. All four of them Helped me out a whole lot back when i was just an Opening act, I'm Glad that were still friends eventhough i haven't seen them in a while. The PTV guys introduced me to the OM&M guys and they were pretty Cool and we partied almost every Night after Every Show which was Simply Crazy. There's never a Dull moment on tour which is what i like about it most of all... I kinda like meeting New people at every Venue, Not just Artists but Fans or anyone who'd like to Share a Conversation with me.
I actually got Caius, My guitar back. My Crew went to London to get it for me because i really can't Stand playing on another Guitar when i already have a Guitar of my own. The Crew got all of the Stuff i needed but not the Stuff i came with when i stayed back at Jack and Finn's house which means all my Clothes, Jewelry and Perfumes were still there but i didn't mind since my Manager actually got me New ones, At first i actually refused to wear any of the Clothes that my Manager had brought for me but then She told me that it came from some of my Sponsors, I really don't like it when people spend Money on me eventhough my Friends usually Spoil me with Food, Clothing, Jewelry, Shoes and Other forms of Luxury in life.

I sat down on the couch that was placed on the Corner of the Room, I placed the Side of my Face on my Palm, Staring at the Door Intently, I don't know why i'm even Staring at it but somehow... I'm Expecting someone to just bust in and Somehow ease out the Stress that i didn't even know was Building up inside me and Somehow i'm Craving for the Song that Nightingales sung, I feel Fine and i feel Good, I feel like i Never should whenever i get this way i just don't know what to Say... Well, How about that ? Lyrics just popped in my head at a Time like this.
I grabbed my Notebook and started to write them down, The song that i'am writing right now is somehow related to those of a love that can Never be in Novels, Painful and Tragic but somehow the Pain and the Sacrifice makes it Beautiful. I didn't know that Tears were already forming in my Eyes until i noticed the Mark that the Tear had left on my Notebook.... and just then my Manager came through the Doors that i looked at a while ago "Erin ! You're up in--" and when her eyes finally Landed on me, She looked Worried "Erin ? Are you okay ? Did something Happen ?!" She questioned me quite Frantically
I looked at myself in the Mirror and saw a Couple more tears Streaming down my Face, I chuckled and wiped them away "I'm-I'm Fine... I was writing a Song that just popped up in my Head and i didn't know that it meant something more than it Sounded."
She sat right down next to me and looked at the Notebook that was on my Lap "It seems like it... Good job, Kiddo." She smiled a Sad Smile and rubbed my Back, She then handed me a Tissue and i took it Gratefully from her hands, Wiping away the Tear Stains on my Cheek
She pats my back and Stood up, She turned to look at me and gave a Warm Smile "Its Time for your set..."