Fractured Thoughts

Bang Bang

A/ N

I feel like crap, so this is a short note. same stuff as always.

- A

" She shot me, she shot me, bang bang, she shot me." Bang Bang- K'naan featuring Adam Levine

I press a hand to my side, he collapse behind me. Where he stabbed me is bleeding, and I stumble. " Derek. What happens now?" He scoops me up. " We need an ambulance!" He sets me down on the grass. " Daddy. Momma?" I whimper. " they're at the hospital." It's a new voice.

" Em'ly." I mumble. She takes my hand. " we're gonna get outta here just fine. You're gonna be fine." I nod, and start to close my eyes. Emily squeezes my hand. " you can't fall asleep. Do you understand me Georgia Ella Jareau-Hotchner?" I sigh. But I'm so tired! Why won't she let me sleep? The ambulance is there. The ride passes in a blue.

" Get her to OR 2, we need to take care of that." The monitor beeps crazily. " she's in vfib! Call a code! Charge paddles to 200! Clear!" Beep beep beep beep beep. The monitor starts beeping again. " Let's move, now!" My eyes open with a start. I'm on a gurney, a doctor leaning over me. " Hey sweetie, you're gonna be okay. I'm Dr. Grey."I nod. We're in the OR now. " I'm gonna count down from ten." Someone. Says placing a mask over my fave. " 10...9...8...7...6..." That's as far as I get before the anesthesia kicks in.

I dream. I dream about my family. Playing with Jack and Henry. With the two babies I don't know. I'm happy. Really happy.Spencer laughs and takes my hand, and kisses it. Wait... What? Where did that come from?

My eyelids flutter. I see Derek eating some jello. Emily's sleeping on a couch sitting up, head on Hotch's shoulder, hand on her stomach. JJ is in a chair by my side. Spencer is... Reading. What a surprise. Dave is talking with Pen.

" Jello." I say. They all look at me. "

" Sweetie..." Dave smiles. " welcome back to the land of the living." I rasp," I want Jello." They laugh. Emily walks over. " Are my babies doing well?" She nods. " They were just worried about their god mommie." I smile. " Where's little G man and Hen?" Hotch smiles. " I'll have Jessica bring them." He steps out to call. I shoo the rest of the guys out. " Em, you okay?" I ask. She grimaces. " One of them is kicking my rib cage."I smile. " They'll be happier living in our new house!" She groans. I laugh. " this weekend Emmy!" Just them the door to my room slides open. I see a streak of blonde and a streak of brown before I feel two boys land with a thump on my legs. I wince. " Hey loves, I'm a little hurt, so be a bit gentle please." my boys smile, and I sit them on either side of my bed. The rest of the week passes without much happening, soon it's weekend, and Emily is moving with Hotch, Jack and I.

I'm on crutches, barely allowed to move in fear of getting hurt. I can be on my feet for 10 minutes, then I need to stay still. I'm going through a box of photos when I see one of Emily as a teenager. I'm sitting on her bed, and I call out . " Emily!" She walks in. " You okay kitten?" I smile. " yeah, fine. Just bored. Can we drive to the park, you, me, Jack and Boss man? For a picnic?" She smiles. " we'll have to ask Boss man, but its fine with me." Jack then pops out from under the bed where he was. " I told you Em'ly would say okay belly, I told you!" He squeals. I get up to help Jack get ready while the adults talk. I smile, noticing that Hotch automatically reaches for her hand, and touches it. The lunch consists of PBF sandwiches, apples, carrots, potato chips, juice boxes ( apple), and chocolate chip cookies. We head out the door, and I try to hop into the back of the car, but Hotch lifts me in. At the park, we spread the blanket out, and Jack runs off to play on the playground, while Emily and I stretch out on the blanket, one hand readying on her stomach. Hotch ask, " May I?" She nods, and he puts his ear on her tummy. " Hey babies, Daddy's here, you're gonna love coming here when you're born, with your mommy, sister and brother. Well be a family." He smiles, and rests his hand on Emily's. an elderly woman walks up to us. " I just wanted to say what a perfect family you are, with you parents and your gorgeous daughter, and a baby on the way." Emily beams. " Thanks so much, we all love eachother so much." Hotch looks at her after the lady toddles away. " we all live eachother so much? We do?" He asks softly. " We do." I say. " We may be an extremely messed up family, but we do love each other." I smile to myself, knowing that Emily finally said I live you, but not directly so that he caught what she meant. She blushes catching me smirking at her, and calls instead,.

" Jack Jack, time to eat!" The dark haired boy comes running. We enjoy a picnic, and head home. I decide to stay with Pen tonight. I call her. " Hey Pen? Can I sleep at your place tonight?" She squeals.

" Come on over cinnamon roll! Can Jacky come?" I laugh. " Yeah, Dad said its fine." We make plans for Morgan to pick us up at 5. I smile. Now Emily and Hotch would have some time to talk. I swing my way into Jack's room. " Jack Jack! We're going to Auntie Pen's tonight!" He squeals. " Get your clothes! And then come down stairs!" I swing down the stairs, and almost bump into Emily. " Is Jack ready?" she asks. " Yeah." I look at her, she looks stressed. " Emy, sit on the couch with me and talk like we used to." she smiles, and sits. I grab the tub of icecream two spoons. " so why are you so nervous?" Em smiles. " You know me that well?" I shrug. " I'm afraid that I'm gonna be a horrible mum, and that somethings gonna happen to my babies." I look at her. " Emm, you're already a mum. You're Jack's mum, and you're pretty damn close to mine. You're going to be an amazing mum, they'll love you. Just like me and Jack love you. Don't worry." She smiles. " Thanks Kitty.I... I dunno, I've never had any doubts before now." I laugh. " Hormones." She pulls me in for a hug. " For the record love, I love you too. Derek's here though." I rest a hand on her belly. " BE good to mommy. Love you babies." JAck comes running down the stairs.

" Uncle Derek's here!" He flies to the door, and yanks it open. Derek scoops him up in a hug. " Hey Jacky!" Hotch comes down. " Not too late, and Ella, be careful!" I smile. He grabs me in a hug." Look after Jack." I whisper back, " TEll Emily how you feel." He takes a deep breath. " Bye Ell." I hug Emily. " Look after Daddy." We leave.