Thoughts in the wind

Chapter 3

Flashback part 1
I wake up to a very hot room, I seem to have pushed all the covers off of myself whilst I was sleeping. I look over to see my boyfriend Ryan sleeping, he has a highlight on his forehead from the streetlight glistening on his sweating face. I sit up and look on the bottom sheet to see it drenched with my sweat. There is smoke surrounding my vision, I stand up to walk to the side of the bed where Ryan is sleeping to wake him up. I hurriedly wake him, he sits up shocked at the sudden disturbance.
"What's wrong why it so smokey in here, I can hardly breathe." he says accompanied by a cough.
"I think it's a fire, we need to check on everyone." We go to run out careful to not run into anything but as I go to turn the bedroom handle my hand is burned. I scream out from the painful heat. I look around for a shirt to open up the door, I find one and open it and run out with Ryan in hand. We open up the door next to mine and go to wake up my brother Aaron, but he's already up throwing a shirt on. The three of us walk to my parents bedroom to find them still sleeping with my little sister Annabelle nudged between them, she often sleeps in their room because she is scared of the monsters under her bed. You can thank my brother for that he started to scare her with the monsters when she was being annoying. I quickly run to my dads side of the bed to wake him, I nudge him, once I take the few steps to get there.
"Dad I think there's a fire, we need to get out of the house." And with that he sits up and wakes up my mom and picks up my little sister and we all leave. As we go down the stairs I here Aaron say he feels light headed. I look back to see him collapse and fall to the ground, I run up the stairs to see if he's okay. He doesn't move he just lays there. I Check for a pulse and find that it's slow and I can hardly feel it. We can't leave him so I call Ryan up to take him outside the house. We all leave the house, I pick up the phone to call the police but it won't work. I run to my neighbors house to use their phone but it's not working either. As I leave their house I start to here sirens, I guess someone noticed and called the police. I run back to my family to find that they are all on the ground past out. I stop suddenly unable to comprehend what's happening. They look peaceful, like they're just sleeping. Tears start to invade my eyes, I know they're hurt but I'm paralyzed by the thought that they could all be dead. I look back at the house to see that the windows have busted out from the unbearable heat. I snap out of my thoughts that are leaving me trapped not able to help my family, and I run over and Check all of their pulses I started with my little sister and worked my way over to my brother who was lying under Ryan who must have collapsed with Him in his arms. I check Ryan's pulse and his was like everyone's before his weak, Hardly there. I move over to Aaron and check his pulse, yet something's different. He doesn't have one, in a panic I move my head to his chest to try and listen for one, still nothing. I'm crying trying to do anything and everything to bring him back but he still lays there peaceful not moving or breathing. I have tried CPR that didn't work. I could feel the desperation in me rise to the surface and I start beating on his chest hoping this will help him, It doesn't. I lay there tired from the CPR and beating on his cheats I give up. I pick up his limp body in my arms and sob. I know I should get up and see if everyone is still alive but I'm crippled and can't take anymore. I look up with the fog of tears in my eyes to see a fire truck, ambulance, and a police car pull up. The EMT walks over and pulls my brother out of my hands, I try to fight his invasion but i know it's what's best. He stops and looks me in the eyes I can't see his facial features all I see are his bright green eyes.
"Mam please......"
I try to focus on what he's saying but I can't I assume he's trying to tell me to let go, so I do. I'm left there, body's surrounding me I watch as EMTs try to help. I hear one say something about my mom. I cry harder knowing what's going to happen to all of them. A EMT try's to ask me a few questions but I can't do anything but cry. They opt to put me in one of the ambulances that just got here for backup. I get to the hospital and I'm checked out by a doctor.
"You will be fine Mam, and Your brother is alive, his heart stoped at the scene but we were able to revive him. All of your family is in the ICU, you can see them if you would like." The doctor tells me.
"I want to see them."
"Of course, come with me." We walk to the elevator and go to the floor that holds the ICU and get off. Whilst on the elevator the doctor informs me that she's keeping them in 3 different rooms and they're hooked up to life support and I can only make the decision to end life support. They are all brain dead and will most likely never wake up. I know what my decision will be but I don't want to make it yet cause then I know it will be official. She also says that I can't end Ryan's life support because that up to his family. I feel bad that Karen will have to make this decision for her son like I do for my family. we enter a cold room that has a curtain drawn so you can't see who's behind it, I can't help but to wonder whose behind curtain number one. She opens the curtain, and I ask to be left alone before looking back to see who it is.
"I'll be outside if you need me." She says and then walks out.
I turn back to see my Dad lying on a bed with wires and I realize I don't know what to do, I don't want to talk to him because I won't get an answer, I don't want to cry because I can't anymore, I don't want to stare at him it's to hard so I close my eyes. I think of all the times we all danced together listening to music, I can still hear their laughs and the way the house smelt of Home cooked meals my mom had always made. We danced and sang Ryan and I were dancing together, mom and my brother danced, and my dad was holding my sister and swinging around. I venture into many of my great memories with them as I visit each family member. After visiting each family member I kiss them on the forehead to say goodbye. I miss them so much it doesn't even seem real. I feel so guilty I'm the only one here, it's not fair I wish I was with my family. It becomes to much for me to be in the room so I open my eyes and walk over to the door. I walk slowly out of the last room I had to visit and into the hallway.
"I'm done, can I go home now?"
"I'm sorry mam you can't, you have to stay for observation, just a extra precaution." The doctor say with pity in her dark brown eyes.
"Okay, I'll make my decision about my family tomorrow, I can't today."
"That will be fine take as long as you need."
She escorts me to a room and then hands me a hospital gown so I can wash up and change out of my ashy clothes. After my shower I head to the bed that's calling to me because I'm so emotionally exhausted it's played a toll on my body. I lie in the hospital bed and try to get my mind off the recent events. I lay there for what feels like forever until sleep wraps its arms around me and I drift off into oblivion.
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Hey this chapter was uploaded yesterday but when I reread somethings were bothering me so I took it down and posted a slightly different version:)
Also pic is what I envisioned the house to be.
Thx-D