Bangtan Sonyeondan Imagines

I don't Desrve Her (Jhope Part 3)

"I WILL WAIT FOR YOU"

10:00 AM

JHope Pov.

"Ahhhhhh" "damn I'm having the worst headache "aish"

"Jagiiiii" I can't freakin get up

"JAGIIII" where is that girl???

"Jagi.. can you get me some aspirin and water" "Love!!!"

This headache is killing me, where the heck is Viella, did she gone out without even telling me.

I just have to take care of myself now. I got up from the bed and checked the nightstand if Viella left some note. She always does this if she's going somewhere before I Awake.

Gladly I found a 2 aspirin tablet with a glass of water maybe he left this for me.

"Kamsa Love, your always the life saver" I drank the aspirin and set the water down. But where is the note. She always left me a note if she's out.

"Aish what happened last night. I can't even remember a thing" trying to recall the event from last night. As my headache subside I stood up and walked to the bathroom to freshen up.

Tho, I'm still confused and worried of Viella going out without telling. This isn't like her.

"Maybe she just went out for a bit. She'll come back later"

I started showering and cleaned myself up. I feel so sticky. Whatever happened must be a wild one.

Scrubbing myself up, I get too immersed with my lovely shower when memories from last night is starting to hit me like a train.

From Viella calling; telling me to come home early, to my friends and staff celebrating the finished album, to partying hard, to getting drunk, to a phone call from Viella, to the harsh words I said from the phone and the harsh words I said before I passed out.

Events from last night hit again and again. How stupid could I be. This is why Viella isn't in the house, this why Viella didn't left a note.

I freakin' fucked up

"NO....NO....NO... THIS CAN'T BE. YOUR A LIVING IDIOT HOSEOK, DAMN STUPID OF ME"

I rushed out from the bathroom drying myself and put some pants on. I didn't bother wearing a shirt, I was more bothered and scared on what I have forgotten yesterday.

I rushed out downstairs to the dining room and there I saw

A fully decorated room
Set tables with wasted food
A melted candle probably been lit all night
A shattered bottle of an empty wine, and finally
A banner that said;

"Happy 3 Year Anniversay Love, I'll love you forever and always"

"No......" my voice was shakey, not handling the mess infront of me. I was shaking; my hand, my feet, my whole body, it was shaking.

I didn't noticed I was crying when my feet gave out of me.

"What have I done, she doesn't deserve this" no she was the perfect girl for me. She was my one and only. And what the heck did I do. Fucking hurt her.

I fucking hurt her because of my stupidity. I'm a such an idiot.

"Why did I even done that, what was wrong with me" I stood up planning to fix this mess and to get Viella back.

I grabbed my phone and started calling her. It rang and rang but it all leads to her voicemail.

I called her again and again.

"Love, why aren't you picking up" I called her again and finally she answered. But not exactly who I expected to be.

"Vie-------"

"WOULD YOU STOP BOTHERING MY FRIEND, YOU SON OF A JERK. AFTER YOU MADE HER CRY THEN YOU JUST GO CALLING ON HER. SHOW SOME DECENCY WOULD YOU. DAMN YOUR GIVING ME A HEADACHE"

"Viella.... give the phone to Viella, I want to talk to her please"

"TALK TO HER?!?!?! AFTER THE THINGS YOU SAID. I WON'T LET A WORD FROM YOU BE HEARD TO  VIEL. YOU FUCKING MORON GO TALK TO YOUR BAL------

"Trisha who are you talking to??? Wait is that Hoseok on the other side? Let me talk to him"

I heard the sound of the angel. The person I've been longing for. I need her I want to talk to her and say how sorry I am. Just please let me....

"TALK WITH THIS JERK? VIEL ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND. HE HAS A POTTY MOUTH"

"Trisha give me the phone it's my phone. And it's my problem, I can handle it."

"NOOOOOOO......VIEL YOUR TOO SOFT" tooot tooot tooot tooot

The called has ended. I haven't talked to Viella yet. No. No. No. I tried calling him again. Jebal.

She answered at the first ring. I hope this isn't Trisha anymore. I really want to talk to Viella.

"Hello..?" Finally the person I need.

"Love" my voice was shakey, it seems like I cant say a word. I was scared that I will say something stupid again.

"Hoseok, how are you? Did you take the aspirin yet?"

"Yeah I did. Thank you"

"Thats good"

"Love, I'm sorry, please"

"Hoseok. We need space from each other clear our minds with everything"

"Love, please... I'm sorry,  I'm sorry"

"Hoseok I was hurt with your words"

"I didn't mean any of it. Please I'm sorry" at this point I was already begging.

"Hoseok don't. I forgive you, I always do. You don't have to worry. But right now I really think we both need a break with each other"

"NO, Viella don't leave me. I love you so much. I Love you Viella. We promised each other. You promised me"

"Hoseok. I'll love you forever and nothing is going to change that, even if you didn't care for me anymore"

" I care for you Viella, I always do. I love you so much,  I beg you, please don't leave me"

"It's not the same anymore Hoseok. You don't have time for me, you don't care for me that much like before. I think this is the best for us, I know this is the best for us"

"BEST FOR US???? Viella it will never be the best to leave me. Why are you.making the decision for the both of us? Why are you leaving now? Are you done with me? You don't love me anymore. How can you leave me Viella. HOW?!"

That is where it hit me when I heard her crying on the phone. I'm a complete asshole.

" Viella I'm sorry I didn't meant to----"

"YOU SON OF A JERK. WHAT THE HELL DID I TELL YOU MAKING HER CRY. YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DON'T DESERVE HER SO WHY DON'T YOU JUST FUCK YOURSELF AND LEAVE HER ALONE. YOU JERK FACE MAKING MY FRIEND CRY AISH"

The line was cut. Tears falling on my eyes as I got on my knees again feeling like a complete asshole. I was a jerk.

I don't deserve her.