how my life is going;

5/16/17

    basically i have nothing better to do right now. i feel like a complete loser at school, especially when people here are so rude and demeaning. i'm sitting in tnt at school (which is like our study hour) and i have no one to talk to. my friend is busy and i already feel that today is going to be a bad day. i don't really have a lot to say, i just want to talk to someone and ig this helps, even if no one who reads it cares. i'm supposed to be helping with the school dance but me and my anti-social self is not even going to let me get up and talk to anyone. i'm glad i have friends though because my life would be awful without them. basically i'm just bantering right now but i just wanted to get this started now. ig i can talk a little bit about myself now. i enjoy rain and gloomy days and i really like plants, yeah i know i'm a cliche but oh well. i am a very sensitive person and i enjoy emotional (emo) music that is so loud it shakes people to the core, but i also really enjoy sad quiet songs that are sweet and shy. i like a lot of things, like the color pastel pink and the color black. i hate lots of things like tomatoes and overplayed music. i am scared of being like somebody else, being alone, and clowns. yeah, i'm basic i know. i like looking at things very closely and either finding the beauty or over criticizing them. a weird child, that's what my mom calls me. but my mom is my favorite person. my brother gets on my nerves but he has a kind heart. my dad is selfish and only likes to think of himself, but i think he tries. i like to make myself look nice but then i hate the feeling of it, so i just wear band t-shirts and jeans most of the time. i love poetry and i'm thinking about starting a new book of poetry later (??) idk maybe not. music is my favorite thing in the world and idk what i'd do without it. the point is, my name is amelia and i'll be writing about my life if anyone cares. and please message me if you ever want a friend. don't be shy, i'm nothing special :)