My Poetry

"I Understand"

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One of the things I remember most about you
It that you said "I understand"
After I revealed my pain to you.
But I knew you were lying...

You never cut yourself before like I had, fascinated at the blood running down your arms.
You never realized that all your jokes about death were all to real to me.
You never stood in front of a mirror and saw only imperfections on your body.
You never sat alone for hours and thought about all you had done wrong in your life.

You never understood why I wore long sleeves all the time.
You never understood why I was "moody" for days upon days.
You never understood why I didn't care about anything anymore.
You never understood the pain I went through.

You never understood the voices in my head.
You never understood that demons were controlling my life.
You never understood that to please the bad thoughts I had to hurt myself.
You never understood that those demons almost took me away... forever.

You'll never know how much time it took for me to heal.
You'll never know just how it feels to see perfection in your body.
You'll never know what its like to see the scars fade away.
You'll never know how I let the the darkness slip away.

You said you understood,
But you didn't
Because you did not go through it
Like I did.