My Poetry

Trust

I should have known better than to trust you.
I knew better, but I did it anyway.
I trusted you when people said not to.
I trusted you even after I saw how your actions and words never matched up.
I trusted you even after what you did to me.
I trusted you when I was at my lowest, because you told me that was the best thing for me.
I trusted you after I was taken away, because it was the only thing I was comfortable with.
I trusted you for so long that I doubted everything because you weren’t there to correct me.
I trusted you for so long that I lost more than part of myself when you weren’t there.
I trusted myself to let you go and say it was your fault.

But, I trusted you for so long that I knew you were always right.
So when we met up to say goodbye for good all I said was,
“You did nothing wrong. It’s my fault for trusting you so much.”

The thing is, I still trust you.
I want you in my life again to validate what I think and say.
But I’ll never see you again.
I want to trust that that’s not true.
That is how much trust I put in you.