Broken, That's all I feel!

Chapter 8

Violla P.O.V.

I'm now sitting back on the chair I just sat on, when the seemingly kind women came back in. I tensed as she came past me. Habit I guess. I saw her confused expression when I tensed. 

I kept my head down and started to frantically pull on my sleeved top making sure no one saw the bruises on them. I didn't now how else I was going to hide my face from her. So I just looked at the floor as if it was the most fascinating floor in the world.

"So Violla Harling, could you please look up at me... so I now that your listening to me." She asked kindly. I didn't now what to do, would she hurt me if a shook my head 'no', if not I still didn't want her to see the damage done to my face. What am I to do!

"Sweety are you ok, you seem stressed, and nervous." Well of course I'm nervous if anyone saw my face right now, they could call my parents and I just got away from them I don't want them coming here otherwise it would be the end of me.

There really is only one way to do this. I have to answer her. But to be honest I'm petrified. I've never spoken unless told to, so this is very scary for me.

Here goes nothing...."I-I...fine" was all I could get out. My throat seemed to close over. Shit not now she'll see. "Are you sure your alright-" before she could finish I feel to the floor and started gasping for air. I'm so scared. Tears started pouring down my face...I can't find any air. Vi focus on my voice ok...this will be hard but I'm always going to help you, you now that. Ok so focus on your breaths, make quick little breaths of air in OK, relax your body, because you being so tense Vi isn't helping you find any air. So just relax and take small gasps of air...then when you start to get more oxygen in your body start to take normal breaths instead of quick ones. Mara spoke to me soothing me, and trying to calm me down faster...hearing her voice helped so much. I did what she said I relaxed by body and tried to take quick sort breaths and found that my breathing was a lot easier. Thanks Mara, I was so scared, I love you, I started to break down in tears. Like I said to you many times, I'm always here for you Vi, I'm going no where without you, you are most welcome and I love you more Vi. I gave a weak smile at that. (We probably sound like a love-struck couple), but I don't care think what you like if the only friend you have was only in your head then let me know. I will understand.

I sat up slowly getting a little dizzy from the loss of oxygen in my body. I started to sway slightly put I kept the air that was in my ponytail out and over my face so as she still, couldn't see my face.

"I'm going to take you to the school hospital something about you doesn't seem right to me... you barely spoke, two words to me and then you fainted for a werewolf especially that's not a good sign. Come on I'll help you up". I felt her so close to me and I couldn't help a whimper come out of my mouth as I scurried away from her voice. My back came into contact with a cold brick wall and I new I was trapped. "P-Please d-don'tt" I whispered quietly, very shaken up. I don't like being that close to people, it scares me.

I wish I was stronger, braver, tougher but most of all happier, but I never was and I doubt I'll ever be. Instead I'm weak; coward, sad, lonely, depressed, unhappy.

"Ok... I don't mean to scare you Violla I just want to help you...can you trust me... you can follow me to the hospital if you don't want my help, but I really think you should get a check up." She sighed I could tell she only meant to help me and inflict no harm on me. Although I now she means well if I go to the hospital the doctors and nurses will see the damage my family and bullies at my late school did to me. Even if I'm still in a lot of pain I don't want pity from anyone, they'll also find out that I was abused as the bruises on my skin are finger prints, so I can't say 'oh I feel down the stairs and that caused these bruises' they'd now I was lying.