Broken, That's all I feel!

Chapter 13

Violla P.O.V.

I wake up from that dream, and looked around me wondering where I was. Then I remembered being told about leaving to werewolf academy, then meeting my mate. I still can't believe I have one. Just then I was pulled out of my thoughts by someone gentally rubbing circles around my back. I froze for a split second but relaxed when I felt the tingles and sparks fly around my back from my mates hands.

"Hey baby you alright do you want a drink or something to eat" he started to get paniced he looked as if I might disappear at any moment. I laughted at his expression.

"I need a drink of water, but I'll get it myself... I do now where my kitchen is." He shook his head and smiled at me "I'll find the kitchen you stay in bed and relax, I'll be back in a giffy". With that he kissed my forehead, smiled at me and ran in the opposite direction towards the kitchen. He's so kind and caring to me, do I really deserve him. Yes you do we both deserve our mates but you mostly, after all I havn't been with you from day 1 sadly. You only think you don't deserve one because they brain washed you all the time. If theres anyone that deserves a mate its us. You've seen hell for crying out loud... you deserve every piece of heaven you can get your hands on. A part of me believed her but it was still going to take time to heal and believe completely, because a part of me still dosen't think I deserve a mate. Just then my Greek-god comes in through the door and smiles at me. A beautiful smile, I'm still not used to these smiles, I'm used to glares, snarls, growls (anger), evil smirks and more glares.

"Here you go Vi my princess, I was about to make pan-cakes but you have zero ingredients in your kitchen so once you get that water down you we are going to my room and then I'll take you to the kitchen. Where you can eat everything there. I want some Lucky Charms right now." I looked at him confused whats lucky charms, now he's talking gibberish. "Whats lucky charms." He looked at me as if I had two heads and opened and closed his mouth kind of like a fish. That made me giggle. "What are you giggling about princess... although don't stop because I'm loving that sound he smiled at me, a loving smile. That made me turn crimson. He laughed at my colour of cheeks. "Just that you had your mouth opening and closing and no words coming out, and I thought your expression looked like a fish" that made me laugh again. He rolled his eyes. "Seriously though you don't know what Lucky charms are... they not have that there in your old pack." I flinched when he said my 'old pack' its still my pack I'm not a member to his pack yet and I don't like the way he reminded me of them. Mara whimpered in fear. 

He saw my reaction and quickly started to calm me down. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have brought up the whole pack thing, I can see that its a 'no go' topic for you. I'm so sorry forgive me Vi,please." He begged sitting on his knees in front of me again and with pleading eyes. 

This must be very hard on him, to see his mate like this all the time, and probably feels like he's tregging on 'egg shells'. "It's ok, I just don't like hearing about them or the pack in general...it sss-sca-res mm-e." I started to choke up near the end and ended up in tears. His face held worry and sadness, probably that I was hurting and being my mate never wanted to see me hurt or hurting so he quickly pulled me onto his legs, I was facing him. I leaned into him and breathed in his sexy, scent of chocolate and mint.... yum. It calmed me down immediately. "There much better now eh" He gave me a kind-looking smile which made me smile. He quickly wiped away my tears. 

"Come with me, get dressed first and meet me by your dorm door and I'll feed you breakfast at my shared kitchen." What shared kitchen, you mean I have to met people. I'm not good with people, bad things happen to me. He saw my reaction and ran over to me and held me close. "Don't worry it's 5:45am they should still be sleeping, its the weekend to so they probably won't rise till noon or later. There lazy bums". He commented 'Lazy bums' ha now that's funny...to me anyway. I smiled and nodded. He bent down and kissed my lips My hands automatically went to his soft black hair and started pulling a few strands he growled in his chest. But it wasn't a growl that would have me cowering away in fear, it was a possessive growl, it had me turned-on. He licked my bottom lip asking for entry... I decided to mess him about this time see how long he could suffer for. He growled in sexual annoyance. His hand travels quickly to my bum and squeezes, it tight 'whoa' I gasp. I wasn't expecting that, but I'll not lie I was loving it. He took his opportunity and started to explore my mouth I groaned he backed me up to the wall. He starts to trails kisses all over my face and down my neck making me pull more hair on his head. My moans where getting louder. He lifted my thights up to his waist, so I automatically clung them around his waist in case he let go and dropped me. He would never do that! Mara scolded. I mentally rolled my eyes at her. 

I could feel his not so 'little friend' poke my upper thigh. This made me gasp. I turn him on to. Well duh your his mate! she sighed at me. Oh for crying out loud this once go away and make-out with his wolf. I sent mentally to her. With pleasure, she was so sly now.

He kissed and licked the 'spot' where my mark would be because it was so sensitive to his every touch when he kissed the spot it made me whimper for more and then I arched my back and moved my hair away from my 'mark' area. "Marko" he shivered when I said his name, that made me smirk and internally do a happy dance, I had such an effect on him already. "Yes princess" she whispered a little breathless, "mark me please" I was now the one begging. "What...are you sure," I could practically feel him and his wolfs excitement. "Yes, please now" I groaned with want I needed him, wanted him right now to claim me. He looked into my eyes making sure I was serious and have no doubt in my eyes. He smiled a full...boy-at-Christmas-got all-the-presents-I-wanted look. And licked and kissed my spot making me arce my back closer to him and move my neck sideways allowing him easier access to my neck. He then started to suck my neck, "ahh" I gasped Oh this was sweet, agonizing, pissful torture. I wanted him NOW! He drew back and I saw his canines extend but I wasn't scared this was natural. He bit down on my neck hard to make sure a stronger bond was formed. You can only do this by biting deep into the tissue. There was no pain just pure heavenly pleasure and once done he licked my wound making sure the wound would heal instantly. I pulled his face to mine and suprising him dove into his mouth for more, he was stunned for a second but quickly came around and sqeazed my bum again, and started to control my entire mouth with his, all the while growling in want, approval and raw need. His friend getting a lot bigger. 

I pulled his face away to breath but that didn't stop him. He was giving me a hickey on the other side of my neck, the one without the mark. "We need to stop." I breath out. If we continued we'd end up completing the mating bond there and then. And I'm just not quite ready to go 'all the way' right now. He pulled back and nodded "your right... plus I want you fed now, I don't like seeing you this thin.... I want to be the best mate I can be for you but I need your hunger fed first. Come on lets go. I nodded my head and detatched myself from him, and ran to my plastic bad of clothes and took out my grey sweats and loose fitted plain black top. He looked angry, probably that I only have two outfits, but turned around. I quickly took his overly long shirt off and put on my underwear and clothes and put my hair up in a messy bun. He turned around and gave me the once over.

"You need to go shopping we'll do that once you've eaten." I nodded  my head, I new I needed clothes and I liked the idea of going into a shopping centre for the first time. I was a little excited. I grabbed his hand. He interlinked our fingers together. And let the way out of my dorm and towards the main building.