Confessions of Somewhat Asshole With A Cute-Ass Smile

ppl suck

You know, I was having a good day, hell past couple days.

I got a boyfriend, the best tbh. My first relationship! :))

My grades are improving.

But three things happened to fuck it up.

One thing was my friend won't let me help her with her bullying problem. She won't let me tell anyone, and it sucks. She looks like she wants to cry and I wanna help but I cant so it's emotionally degrading.

The other thing is my internet "friend" Shannon doesn't wanna talk to me, and she's making 0 sense.

The last thing is my classmates. They are so rude!!! They don't know I have a fucking heart and feelings and drive me nuts with all their shitty remarks.

You know why it sucks? I try to be a good person, and what happens? I get treated like shit. Fucking shit.

I try to do great, but it's never good enough. I always try, but it backfires every damn time.

My soccer team is so degrading. Most of them don't like me, so I'm ending up having to be the loner. It sucks. They don't listen to me, but they listen to everyone else. What the hell did I do to them? That's a good question, but, I don't know the answer.

I can't tell my own parents anything. They will say "do this" or "do that" or blahblahblah-bullshit.

The only reason I'm leaving my school district is because I'm lonely. I'm scared. I'm afraid of what they'll do to me. I'm afraid of facing my problems, so I'm running away from them.

The only good things out of the past 9 hours was helping out my other internet friend and talking to my bf.

I'm going to bed. I need some sleep. And I need to cry.

xoxoterri