So we all head back to the city and Jenny sat beside me in the bus Mary also rode with us but on a different chair. My friends disnt talk to me because of my situation with Jenny and Mary. (In my head- after Jenny will get off the bus i would need to face my friends and explain)
So we reached the city but Jenny and Cher was the 1st one to get off the bus Jenny was already halfway the bus when she was on her way to get off but she went back her way to me and kissed me goodbye. Omfg! It was the first time someone did that to me, Jenny is so expressive i was all red there were tons of monkeys in the bus and all i could do was look out the window since i was too shy about what she did. Mary's eyes almost popped out her skull. I got off with Marie, Mary, Love and haze but haze rode another jeepney while we all went to love and Mary's Dormitory. So we got to there room and they akk stared at me so i pretended to know nothing about what they were thinking Mary cried and told me what i did. But she really assumed that we were something i told her that whatever she thinks we have should end cause i dont wanna lose good friends but she didnt accept my apology so went home. On my way home, Sakura called after ages. We had a brief conversation i told her where i went but i left out all the inappropriate deets about my crazy night with Jenny. So she did tell me about her experience and evwn told her i really thought that were over since i havent got any single msg or call from her so she told me she found a calling card from her mom's jacket and decided to hide it that is why she was able to call told me she misses me. My heart was torn when i heard this. There she was trying hard to find ways to reach me while i was also too busy running away. I cried so much that day and decided to text Jenny. I told her about what happened,she became quiet for a while i know i have hurt her too but i know she was also thankful about the honesty. I was so happy about meeting Jenny, she is so caring and sweet. I have learned to like her especially because she was too understanding. But, things was never always easy. So a rumor came out that says i had sex with Jenny during that night where we kissed for the first time.Jenny told me about it but i never confess about that issue wtf! Why would i go around telling that to people. So i went to Mary's dorm and everyone was there. That includes Lou she was so pissed about what they i did. She blamed herself because if she had not left Jenny wouldnt be in a mess like this but i went back at her since she also has a GF named Kaye. Lou was in a relationship but its so complicated with Kaye. Their relationship was always on and off. I even told her she was not even able to handle one what more if she would add Jenny to the equation!? ( Up until today i really have no idea who started that rumor.) After that day i barely go with them or anyone from school, Jenny barely sends me messages already. I felt lonely again. So i really made efforts to ask Jenny on a proper date. We went to the mall ate lunch and saw a movie i dont have any idea what the movie was because i was really not able to keep my hands to myself but hey it wasnt that far off we were just kissing here and there and hugging. I found out Lou has really made a move again to get Jenny.I explained to Jenny that everything was really a mistake. She understood we were back at txting and kate night calls again. Summertime came she was still studying during that moment since she was a scholar and took summer classes and if she doesnt have class she works at the school office. That made me admire her more. An unknown number called as i answer i had a feeling it was sakura. She called and told me she will be back already by the next day. I was so nervous i was in a great mess i didnt know what to do. I didnt tell Jenny. Two days after that call Sakura indeed came at my house. I was with my little cousins during that time. She brought a lot of stuff for me and my family and again my mouth was zipped. Of course the fam was excited aince she was back. They have not said a word about what i did while she was away but was reprimanded to clear out my head and tell her things she needs to know. But as you see sakura may have a filipina blood but she is someone i cant contain. I cant just go around tell her this and that then expect for her to understand. Sakura has a way about things. If she says we turn left, we should turn left and when she says stop all must stop. I cant be myself when i was with her. I lied again to her that i wanna change my number so we could buy a new one for her too since i want to have the same digits with hers only have the last 3 numbers different. And so we did. I renamed jenny's number to a guy's name from school but decided to delete it instead. I memorized it though. About another two days passed and Sakura mentioned she wants to meet up with my friends at school or Love and Mary's Dorm she wants to give them the chocolates and chips she bought and so we did. The most awkward thing in my life happened. Hanz lives there too and she was staring at me eyes going around not knowing what she meant so i pretended to want to head to the loo and hanz followed and said Jenny was actually on her way here. I didnt know what or how to feel it feelt like i wanna vomit, pee and poop all at the same time. Lou arrived smiling from ear to ear. I then told Sakura that we should go already because i wanted to eat lasagna at sbarro. She knew something was up why i was acting weird all of a sudden. And then came my death. It felt like the ground is already eating me up. But Lou, asked
" Sakura, have you already met Ate(Elder woman's formal nickname) Jen?" Sakura shook her head but she stared at Jenny who was staring at me and Sakura. Jenny was almost into tears but smiled. Sakura understood what was already going on without me having to explain. I asked her if we could go so we did. She wanted me to confess about it but i didnt only to find out she already knew about it since then a bird twitted to her about what was up with my life. She was furious but became soft at the time i was into tears. I did love Sakura. But i felt like i can never be myself. I was too afraid to open up to her. And it was may the same year it was again another friend's debut. I was invited as well as Sakura. She asked if i wantes to go. I told her i dobnt know. I go around asked some friends f Jenny will be there, as soon as i got the answer i told Sakura we wont go. Lied that i didnt wanna see Lou which was partly true since she was going but with Jenny. The day of Love's debut came i wanted to attend, i did. But the fact that Sakura is around, i surely cant go. So i called love and gave her my birthday message thru the phone and asked if i really couldnt make it. I told her i really wouldnt. She then turned the loudspeaker on her phone Sakura was sitting beside me, my phone has been on loudspeaker the whole time. I could hear jenny on the background playing with Lou. It did hurt. But Jenny deserves someone. But i asked myself why would that be Lou!?
