So we got back together again. Hey,we didn't officially broke up anyways. It felt great having to see her back we barely get sleep ever since we saw each other because we always talk on the phone or text. I always feel excited getting calls or text from Jenny. But then again that only lasted for almost two months. I was called by Sakura that she will be back again. But the day before she came back, Jenny told me something that almost broke me. She said “ Are we going to be always like this?! You cut me off when she is back and you rush after me if she won't be around!?” That statement got me. I couldn't answer her but i cried instead. Not because i wanted her to pity me but because i know there was something greatly wrong number one is me, number 2 is my feelings towards Jenny. Number 3 my confusions about why i can't run away from Sakura. I did broke up with Jenny. Sakura arrived and everything was back again to square 1. Sakura did know i was with Jenny again we had a great argument about it but a good make up sex will always solve everything that is the only thing that makes her shut up. The thing about my relationship with Sakura is i hated our LDR situation, number two i hated that if in case we get into an argument we always end up hurting each other like physically. I let her do what she wants in times like that but always make sure a fight would end up with sex. I hated the fact that i couldn't be myself because i always had to watch my every move just so she won't get angry or pissed. Sakura was generous, overly generous but she is impatient and a brat. I was called by my dad since twas almost a year since i stopped going to school. He asked if i wanted to work. I agreed and told him i wanted to since it was my chance to move away. I did move out but Sakura rented a room for me,her aunt and her. She just won't let me be in fact she also applied to d same company where i was. Good thing she was move to a diff outlet. We both worked for toyota as paint mixer.it doesn't pay that well but i wanted to try. We only lasted for about 2 weeks she applied to be an internet cafe attendant she only lasted for a day. Then i also stopped working. It was really not the job that made me stop it was where we were living
( Mandaue Maguikay) The room was too hot and the restroom was hideous. Imagine 30 rooms for rent only having 2 restroom and 1 bath. I was able to use the loo just once and if i needed to use the loo i would go out and walk to a restaurant(Bee happy) just so i could pee or poop. And what's worst was seeing rats as big as cats. That made me stop. I went out somewhere looked for another job we got accepted again to diff company it was a company who makes trophies. We moved to Mactan too where the factory was located it was just a walking distance. The room wasn't big but it was clean. The heat of the summer wasn't really bearable. Though we were able to manage that for 2-3 months then moved back home. We stopped working again and need to take care of her house( Talisay CDM sbvd). I lived there most of the days and if her grandma will visit for several days i go back home.Though her grandma knows we were together we just didn't want that news to reach her mom that i keep sleepin in their house. So months passed until at the tail end of november came. Her mom called saying her japanese visa was granted to live there for a year and her mom has already bought tickets. We both cried because i know they really wanted us to break up. We did not. It was the 2nd week of 2009 that she went to Japan. WEEKS past and i wasn't able to get any sort of communication from her. I looked for Jenny. I contacted her. We again tried to reconcile i heard Lou contacts her once in awhile.
