silent tears

Chapter 1-pain

Catalina POV

Tears rush through my eyes like waves beating on sea shore, broken heart cover my pupils. My body Shiver from fear and pain. Am I next or  my mom? Do God still loves me? I have lost people i love dearly. It feels like all around is darkness even black roses cry sorrow, trees weep for my soul. My heart pumps nothing, my blood freezes, my flesh wither by the hour and my bones feel drenched. For the first time in my life I feel hopeless and alone.
Dad is dead Eric is dead...... This couldn't be.. I... I refused to believe it.. It's a dream, it has to be.
It was three in the morning and I am still awake, each time I close my eyes all I see is their faces begging for me to forgive them and give them a hug before I go to school. Me
Being a heartless person I am just walk out the door without giving them a second glance. 
"i love you Princess and am sorry please forgive me. "
" Am not going to forgiving you so.. stop trying!! "
"At lease give me a hug before you go "he say with hopeful eyes.
" No you need a bath.. Anyways I don't want to be late so bye. "

" Baby why are you being so difficult we said we are sorry. " said Eric
" Eric sorry is not enough.. And go to hell and leave me alone. ", That was the last thing i said to them.

That image keep playing in my head, but what haunt me the most was them keep telling me they love.
Eric :Baby am so sorry and no matter what I will always love you
Lina :too bad you are not forgiven. Am in class stop perplexing me

I wish I did tell him how much miss and love him. All they were trying to do was trying to make me forgive them and I was being a heartless witch.

I was so lost on my thoughts that i haven't noticed that time as fly to 7 in the morning until mom walk in my room.

"Lina I need to talk to you. "
" Can't it wait? "
" No it can't... You have been in here for a week now.. You need to get out of the house "she said while picking up pizza boxes and dirty clothes around the room.
"

" Mom don't.. Leave it.. I will get it." getting up to help her, hating that she is picking up after my mess. "What you want to talk about anyways" not really engage in any conversation.
"Do you remember your father's sister Kelly from New York City? "
"Yes. What about her?"
"Well... You know I can't afford to sustain both of us food while sending you to school and paying for the house right? "
" Mom i told you that we will make it through "
" No we can't we only have money to maintain us for a month. "
" So what are you implying? "
" Within a week you will move in with you aunt. "
" WHAT!! How could you do that to me?"
"Lina I have no other option here. "
" But I don't even know her.. I can't live with her? "
"Sweetie I know but am doing my best here."
"And i am not! "
" I didn't say that!"
"Get out! "
As soon as the words left my mouth I regret it when I see nothing on her face but hurt but she quickly mask it with a small smile and then nod then walk towards the door. She turn around when reach the doorway and said" think about it." then left.
After she left i start screaming and throwing everything i could reach until my eyes reach a picture of me and Eric hugging at the beach, on  the coffee table beside my queen size bed . In the picture we look so happy that when the tears resurface and I cry myself to sleep.
I woke up with tears stain on my cheeks, a pale skin and a major headache. I walk down stairs into the kitchen to get some meds and some water. I was so hurt to see my mom crying while cooking she quickly wipe her tears when she see me leaning on the counter of the kitchen. I couldn't believe my eyes.
Am I the one that cause these innocent tears.
The guilt that I was feeling was so overwhelming that i start running up the stairs.
"Lina. "my mom said sadly barely audio for me to hear." there's a change of plans you're leaving tomorrow morning" she saying looking at the floor like it's the most interesting thing at the point.
"So eager to get me out of your sight. Why don't you bury like what u did to dad and Eric? "

" Lina"she said stretching my name.
I don't even let her finish i just storm up the stairs without looking back. I started to cry again and it seems as if it was the only thing I been doing lately.

How could she? Just send me a way like that!

That night i stay up packing  everything i love  and what i cherish, i also steal a picture of mom and dad, on their wedding day, from the attic. Mom and dad had divorce two months ago for some unknown reason. They wouldn't tell me. It's like a big secret the are keeping but i will soon find out.

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