Hard Love - George Smith / NHC { ON HOLD }

Opening Up

It's been a month since George 'moved on' and today is the day I'm going to confront him about. I just can't deal with seeing him everyday and not being able to talk to him, I mean he was my best friend.

I walked down the stairs to see where the boys were.
"Yes!"
"Noo!! That's cheating!"
"No way! I won!!"
What the hell is going on?
I walked into the studio room to see Levi and Drew playing the Xbox.
"What are you boys going on about now?" I laughed.
"Levi cheated!" Drew whined. These boys are such kids.
"Levi! What have I told you about cheating!" I said trying to look serious but really I was trying not to bust out laughing.
"What!? No! I didn't cheat!" His eyes were wide.
"Sure Levi."
"Are you serious!?" He whined.
"No! Oh my gosh!!" I laughed.
"Not cool Rachelle. Messing with someone's feelings like that." Drew glared at me.
"You're welcome!" I smiled.
"What's up?" I asked walking up to Austin.
"Nothing." He smiled.
"So Rachelle. Today's the day." Levi said walking up to me.
"Yeah I know." I told Austin, Levi, Nate, and Drew. They are my brothers so why wouldn't I tell them.
"Good morning guys." Blake said walking to the couch with Reece and George walking behind him.
"Morning!"
I breathed in slowly. It's time. I can do this.
"You've got this." Levi squeezed my hand.
"Thanks." I smiled lightly. I walked over to the couch George was sitting on.
"George, can I talk to you?" I asked quietly. He looked up with an annoyed look on his face. Wow didn't know he hated me that much.
"Yeah I guess." He stood up and walked into the kitchen.
"Look I just wanted to get everything off my chest. So I'm sorry in advance." I couldn't even look him in the face cause I didn't want to cry.
"Okay."
"I know you don't give a shit about me anymore. I know you 'moved on'. You don't care. But I do give a shit. I care. I care about you so much and I've not been able to tell you that because you hate me." I paused taking a deep breath.
"I can't get over you, George. Not now. Not ever."
I held back the tears.
"Rachelle." George paused. I could hear how annoyed he was.
"Wow. Okay, before you start George. Why are you such an asshole? You make all these fans think you're one of the sweetest boys a girl could meet. You made me think that. But it's all just an act isn't it? You don't care about anyone but yourself." I glared at him letting the tears fall.
"What?" He softened.
"I tried so hard George! I tried to hide my feelings! I TRIED TO HIDE THE FACT THAT I LOVE YOU! But you generally don't give a shit anymore. So it doesn't matter anymore!" I screamed. Tears were pouring out now. What the hell did I just do. Shit.
"I didn't know you'd get over.... I'm sorry. I shouldn't have.... umm.... I have to go." I hurried and ran out of the room up the stairs.
"Wait! Rachelle!" I heard George scream.
What the heck is wrong with me!?
"Rachelle please!" I heard George outside my door.
"Just let me in." He knocked.
"No. Just go away please?" I cried.
"Yeah. Okay." He sighed. I heard his footsteps lead to his room and his door slammed shut.
I'm such a screw up.
"Shelly?" Someone knocked on my door.
"What!?"
"Let us in." It was Levi.
I walked up to the door unlocking it and letting him and Austin in.
"What was that?" Levi sighed.
"Rachelle. I thought you were explaining it to him?" Austin looked disappointed in me.
"I'm a fucking loser." I cried into my hands.
"Hey. No you're not!" Austin rubbed my back.
"He hates me! He really got over me! AND I told him I love him! What kind of person does that? A loser." I stood up pacing the room.
"It happened. It happened and there's no going back. So deal with it. Talk to him. Tell him you love him again! Don't let him forget. Because I'm tired of seeing my little sister hurt all the time. This time you can do something about it. Please just... make him listen." Austin said tears forming in his eyes.
"I'm sorry Aus. I'm so sorry." I hugged him. Life sucks sometimes. But he's right. I have to keep telling George.
"I'll do it. I'll do it right now!" I walked to my door opening it.
"Wait what!?" Austin and Levi rushed after me.
"You're right. I need to tell him again and again."
"Right now?" Levi looked confused.
"Yes." I smiled.
"Umm okay." Austin said looking at Levi.
I walked up to George's room knocking on the door.
"George?"
The door opened to a puffy eyed red faced boy.
"I- I just- um-" I froze. Shit.
"You what?" He asked softly. He's not got the whole asshole thing going on anymore.
"I love you." I rushed.
"I want to be able to tell you that everyday. I. Love. You." I started crying.
"Really?" He smiled.
"Yes. George I love you so damn much. I don't care that you got over me."
He stopped me.
"No. I didn't get over you! How could I ever get over you!? I love you too Rachelle!" He smiled.
"Really?"
"Yes." He started leaning in.
I stopped him.
"Why were you being an ass?" I asked looking him in the eyes.
"I just.... well I.... I wanted to look like I didn't care. But I did. I cared so much, and then when you were screaming at me.... I didn't know I was being such a dick. I'm so sorry." He grabbed my hands.
"I'm sorry for screaming at you. And then running away." I looked down.
"Don't be. Knowing how you feel about me is the best thing that's ever happened." He smiled.
"Hey guys I was just-" Tris paused.
"Oh god. Sorry didn't mean to interrupt." He smirked.
I looked down to see we were still holding hands.
"It's okay Tris." I smiled letting go of George's hands.
"Yeah you're fine. What were you needing?" George smiled.
"I just wanted to know if you two wanted some Nandos. Me and Brad were hungry so we're bringing everyone food." He still looked like he was uncomfortable.
"Yeah sounds good." I laughed.
"Just get the usual." George said leaning on his door frame.
"Okay. We'll be back in a couple hours." He said walking back downstairs.
"Well I better get back to Austin and Levi." I leaned up kissing his cheek making him blush.
"Talk to you later?"
"Well you are right across the hall from me, so probably."
He laughed rolling his eyes.
"Whatever."
I turned around walking back to my room. As soon as I stepped in the boys grabbed me jerking me to my desk chair.
"He loves you too!" Levi said jumping up and down.
"I don't know if I'm okay with this." Austin stood there with his 'thinking' face.
"I think this is fucking great! Come on Austin! Rachelle needs someone! She deserves to be loved!" Levi was all up in Austins face.
"I'm right here Levi." I laughed.
"Yeah. But you already know how lonely you are." He waved his hand.
"Okay. First. Gross. Second. Shut. Up." I rolled my eyes standing up to go downstairs.
"Where are you going?" They both ran after me.
"To work? You do realize tours in a few weeks right?"
"Oh yeah. Well shit." Levi looked scared.
"How did you even graduate high school?" I swear these boys are dumber than I don't know what.
"Hey! That's just rude!" He pouted.
I laughed walking into the studio room for the second time today. Reece and Blake looked up at me, they looked nervous. But why?
"Hey guys!" I smiled.
"Hey!" Reece said back.
"Can we talk to you?" Blake asked.
"Yeah of course." I already know what they wanna talk about. It's pretty obvious.
"That stuff you screamed at George. Is it all true? I mean, do you really.... you know 'Love' him?" They looked at each other like they didn't know what else to say.
"Of course. Look, I know he's your best friend. You're nervous he'll end up with someone he doesn't need to be with. And the truth is he doesn't need to be with me." I started thinking. He really doesn't need me. I don't deserve him. Something will end up happening to him and it will be my fault.
"What!? No! Your perfect for him-"
I stopped Reece.
"No. I'm not." I shook my head.
"He's such a sweet boy. And I really do love him. Becoming friends with him was the best thing that's happened to me since.... Jason." A tear fell out of my eyes.
"But every time I fall in love with someone bad things happen." I sighed.
"Stop. Just listen to us!" Blake said leading me to the couch.
"We've not seen George so in love with a girl before... like ever. It's been so hard for him to find the right girl. Not one that's pretty yet stupid. Or one that's so smart she thinks she's always right. But one that knows just as much about Star Wars as he does. One that's beautiful yet so smart. A girl that can understand him and his awkwardness. And that girl is you." Blake nodded along with Reece as he spoke.
"I know it's hard. It's hard opening up to these feelings! You're scared. Who wouldn't be. But you're not alone!" Blake squeezed my hand.
"Thank you." I said wiping the tears I didn't know were there.
"Just know that even though George is like a brother to us, you can always come to us to talk about things. We'll always be here for you."
"Thank you boys!" I hugged them both.
"I should probably get back over there." I smiled.
"Oh yeah sorry." Blake laughed. 
That was some weird junk that just happened. Why is it always happening to me?
Oh well.

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A/N: I tried to make it a good chapter since I haven't updated in a few weeks! I'm so sorry about that!💗