Anxiety

Chapter 18 Realization

(Scott's POV)

"I'm going." I said, walking out of my bedroom.

Then I noticed Ingrid's hugging her knees staring blankly at the air on the couch.

"Are you alright?" I asked, checking what she was looking at..which was nothing.

She's been acting so weird lately, and I hate to see her like this.  I think she's avoiding me for some reason.  

I'm meeting the guys today, I asked her to come with, but she said she does't want to.

"Yeah, I'm fine.  Go.."  She said softly, turning her head to the other side, where the window was.

I'm really worried about her.  It's like she is going to disappear at any moment.

I walked forward and knelt down beside her.

"Ingrid..."  I gently grabbed her arm.  

She jumped and gasped, looking really nervous.

"Are you sure you're okay?"  I asked in concern.

"I'm sure..just..just go."  She calmed down and mumbled, looking back at the window.

I got up and walked towards the door.

"Scott, wait."  She spoke up, loud and clear this time.

"Yeah?"  I turned around, giving her a warm smile.

"I....love you." She smiled weakly, hugging her knees tighter.  Her voice was so small..

"I love you, too."  I replied.  Quite shocked by her words.

I love her so freaking much, more than she could ever imagine.

I again gave her a smile, and then I left.

(Ingrid's POV)

I've been avoiding Scott lately.  I always feel the urge to pull him in and kiss him every time he looks at me.  And I felt so guilty about it.

He's my friend, my friend and my bro.  Why do I think about him that way? I feel like a horrible person.  I sometimes saw him in my dreams doing..uhhh..it's unspeakable.

To be honest, this is the first time ever I have sexual attraction for a human being..not that I have for things, uh, you know what I'm saying.

Kirstie said it's completely normal, but no, not on Scott..I don't think that's normal at all.

I buried my face in my knees, closing my eyes, sinking in my deep thoughts.

But it's not just physical though.  He's smile, he's ocean like blue eyes, he's kindness. And his touch, which gives me shivers every time.  

Wait..is it possible....?

How did I not notice...I'm in love with him..madly.

 From the day I met him, I knew he's special.

I'm sure he doesn't feel the same way, he sees me as a friend and he always will.  Me being in love with him and having crazy thoughts are gonna ruin everything.

I can't stay here any longer.  As much as I want to see Scott's gorgeous face and body.  I want to escape from all this.

A/N:  DRAMA COMING!!!!