A Feysand Fanfic

Chapter 1, Part 2

Cassian held onto me tightly, and while he did, elation flooded through me. My throat tightened, and tears came to my eyes. I was going to have my son! That beautiful, gorgeous baby boy that the Bone Carver showed me with the brilliant blue eyes. And he was going to be mine. Mine and Rhys. I couldn't wait to tell him. But I did have to confirm that I was pregnant first. I had to do that, I told myself.  I couldn't get Rhys hopes up for nothing. Or my own, for that matter.

Cassian pulled back to look at me, his eyes brimming with emotion.

"I have no words," he said huskily. "You know. You know how much this will mean to Rhys. To all of us. Our family."

"I know," I said. "But see, Cass, I haven't told Rhys," I said, my voice breaking. His lips parted a little bit in shock. "You're the first one to know. I wanted to confirm it first. That I'm... pregnant. I have to. I couldn't get Rhys hopes up, or anyone else's, and then have it turn out that I'm not actually... " I stopped explaining myself, figuring that if he didn't get it now, he probably never would, and I didn't think I could continue. He stared at me for a second.

"It's okay," he said, comprehending. "I get it. We'll keep it between us," he assured me. "And we'll get a Healer to come see tomorrow morning, before Rhys comes home tomorrow night, and then you can tell him as soon as possible if you are."

"And if the Healer says I'm not pregnant... "

"If you would prefer to not tell Rhys about the whole thing, I'll keep my mouth shut," Cassian vowed.

"Thank you, Cassian," I told him. I was so grateful that Cassian was here, and I tried to convey that to him that in the responding hug that I gave him. I tried to express all of my gratitude that I got this compassionate, caring, Cassian tonight that I so desperately needed, and didn't even realize. And somehow, he had known.

"Okay, okay," he said. "Time for mama to get to sleep." It's true, I was tired. I didn't even feel like reprimanding him for the "mama" comment.

"You're not my caretaker," I managed to grumble at him, but I let him herd me towards the bed anyways.

"I know, I know," he said. "But Rhys would want me to, and you look like shit."

"Thanks," I said, but I was tired and already sliding between the warm covers of my bed.

"Your welcome," he responded. But then he pulled back the covers on Rhys side of the bed and climbed in next to me.

"Cassian, what the hell are you doing?" I asked, incredulous.

"You look so crappy that I feel bad for you," he said. "And so now I feel like I have to stay here." He snorted, cracking himself up. But as he slid into bed, wrapping his arm around me, he said, "And you called for me. You needed me." I nestled into his warmth, feeling that feeling of safety, love, and content, but it was different than when I was with Rhys. It was a different kind of love, I think. So when Cassian said just as I was drifting off to sleep- "I love you, Feyre. Rhys mate, High lady, pregnantness, all of that aside, you will always be my friend. And my honorary sister. Always. "

I didn't hesitate to respond. "I love you too, Cassian," I said just as I drifted peacefully off to sleep nestled in next to him.

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