The day of the wedding came fast but I had no one to tell me everything would be okay. No family. Just friends I made over the years, friends from Lyon Dynasty and Empire and friends in the industry. But they weren't direct family.
Cookie: You look presentable
I side eyed her playfully.
Cookie: I'm joking. You're beautiful. I'm bout to slap Hakeem.
Me: For what?
Cookie: Waiting so long for this
She wasn't telling me something.
Me: I bet it's about work-
Cookie: There's alot of new comes and we need all the hands we could get.
Me: We didn't plan on having a honeymoon anyway. Too mushy.
Cookie: That's my girl! So I'll see you tomorrow?"
I giggle and hiked up my dress getting ready to go out there but something made me stop.
Me: Go ahead. I'll be out in a few.
Cookie: Girl-
Me: I just need a minute.
I sat on the ground in the room and sighed. I haven't talked to Jay in a hot minute...a cuppa years to be exact. He tried contacting me but I declined all his request.
I went on Instagram. Haven't used it in months but I still had a bunch of loyal followers.
Me: I'm getting married guys. Like I know I've been absent but I'm here and I'm getting married. Hakeem you better be ready. Everybody be ready. Watch out for the power couple, bitches!
I posted it and headed out to the hall where Luscious was waiting on me.
The ceremony was good. We said our vows. It was time to saying do and I was shaking so bad. He said I do and then the pastor looked at me. A tear dropped and I said I do.
The reception was bomb asf cause without anyone knowing, I prepared to do one of the unheard songs I made a cuppa years ago. I walked up to the stage and looked over the crowd then I looked back at Hakeem who was just as confused as everyone else.
Me: So a couple of years ago I made some songs. They ain't nun special but they never been heard before. This one is called Justice.
I sighed and the music started up.
Every kid got a dream
Every kid got a hope
As a child, I never got to dream
Never got to see the brighter side of things
I used to wonder what if life was different
What if I knew my mama
What if I hadn't been corrupted
But I couldn't catch a break
I had to grow up fast, had to give it up quick
I used to think suicide is the best side
Maybe gulp a lil peroxide
I didn't know justice, didn't know what it mean
Wouldn't know it if I see it
Didn't know how to dream
But god worked a plan and sent him crazy
Then I saw what other people see.
I had to wait too long for justice but I can say it's worth it
I had so many run ins, more than I counted
My family didn't wanna see me prosper so they locked me in a tower
In the midst of the shit I asked if I trust him
Should I trust this new found nigga that say he worth it?
Is this part of my justice?
Is this part of their justice?
Is this for my fellow kids hoping for justice?
Did I want this? Should I want this?
I stopped their although the song had two more verses. Everybody was clapping but I wasn't finished. That was the rap but I had something else up my sleeve. Poetry.
I can't remember the last day I cried a good cry.
I can't remember the last good meal I had.
This new family is worst than my family.
This new found family don't love me like I want to be.
This ain't my Mama's cooking
This ain't my daddy playing.
I know I'm ungrateful but this ain't the love I wanted.
I finished and walked out of the venue. I needed air. Everything was finally going right in my life and I was happy.
Hakeem:Aye babe, you ok?
Me: Yh just needed a moment to myself.
He hugs me then left me to breeze a lil bit more before I returned. I waited my whole life for happiness and I think I finally got it.
