part two; 6/7/17
the sense of new hasn't quite left you; it's glare is still standing but less vivid than before.
all i can think is how none of this feels real.
i know things have changed yet i'm very much so still believing that i'm going to awake from what seems like a dream.i'm coming to slowly accept that this isn't something i can change; i won't be able to step back in time where during events you felt present and people seemed to actually give a genuine damn about you.
some days there's nothing more than that want aching in my stomach begging for the so called 'good days' that i know in the back of my head have become romanticized dwellings as time has gone; yet there's others where i'm numb to just about every thought and can barely see a point in going forward.
i know this can't be the healthy way of living, but it's how i currently cope with the gray drizzle of nerves as they become one with the black clouds of a loss of purpose and together make the storm i call anxiety and depression.
i will say this; things have improved for me.
before that drizzle was on the verge of becoming a hurricane as it attached to those clouds; now that status has been lost and i'm glad to see that change.
i'm no means clear of this storm; but it is losing its power and that's a victory i'm happy with accepting.
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Randompieces that are either unfinished storylines or poetry like tries of mine.