He started Everything

Chapter 12|| Late night dreams

I tossed and turned in my bed. I can't sleep. I hate this. I hate myself.

I sat up and looked around my dark and empty room. Spacious and lonely. Was that really cuddling?

I got out of bed and went into my bathroom. I don't like looking at myself in the mirror. Everyone thinks Im this girl who sleeps around. Im not.

I don't even know how to kiss. Pathetic? Yes. I turned on the light and walked in front of the mirror.

I looked at my freaked self. My tattoos cover gross scars. My aunt didn't want me to get big ugly ones.

I got tattoos with out their permission, couldn't stop me. I pulled off my tank and winced at the sight of my stomach. Flashbacks of his slicing into me.

I hate this. Why does people think Im a freak? I have done nothing wrong. I took a deep breath in and looked at myself. I liked how safe and secure I felt with Reed.

Something I have missed. Something I want more of. But I can't!

I can't take looking at my scars anymore! I grabbed my tank and pulled it over me. It wasn't enough.

I ran into my closet and grabbed my long sleeve sweater and yanked it on. I can't stand it.

I grabbed my keys and ran out of the house and ran into my car. I can't do this anymore.

No one will ever love this body. No one will ever get why Im like this. No one will ever understand.

I cried from my insecurities and drove. The most irresponsible thing I can probably do tight now.

I drove out of town and to the bridge and got out. I can't live with myself!

" I can't do this anymore" I cried walking over to the bridge. Hope I die fast.

I climbed up on the railing and cried. The wind gushing over me harshly" Be better off" I sniffed looking down.

I closed my eyes listening to the rushing waters. The cold wind hits me more and more.

I take a deep breath " Maybe?" I whispered.

" DAHLIA!" Someone screeches. I yipped and opened my eyes. My balance goes unsteady" Ahh" I screamed.

Falling to my death. Im sor— someone grabs my  me arm as I hit the water.

I blacked out...

•Reed•
I coughed and pulled her out of the shore" Dahlia!" I sniffed and pat her face.

Not moving. I checked her pulse, no—" Fuck, Dal!Come on!" I panic.

I put my ear to her mouth. Nothing. Ok, um. My hands are shaking and I freak out" Um" I gulped.

I ripped open her shirt and start chest compressions" Come on, please don't do this Dal" I pumped my hands repeatedly up and down on her chest.

I do mouth to mouth. Her lips freezing cold and frozen. I start doing chest compressions before she throws up water and gasps and coughs.

I gasped" Thank god!" I grabbed her and held her to me. She coughs and groans.

I pant and look around. Relieved, I didn't kill her. She was going to jump. Why?

She winces" W-What h-happened ?" She shakes in my arms. She shivers.

I shook too from the cold" Come on, lets get you somewhere warm" I whispered helping her up.

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She sniffs and holds her self in the seat next to me" How?" She whispers.

I looked at her" What do you mean?" I whispered.

She glances at me shaking. I blast the heat. She looks out the window" How did find me?" She whispers.

" I was on a run" I said driving down the road to my house. My family is fucked up. I hate them right now. I live in the basement for now. Mother fuckers.

" Oh" she mutters. I looked at her" Were you going to jump?" I asked serious. I pulled into the driveway.

" I don't know" she doesn't even look at me. She was.

~Dahlia~
I don't want to talk about what I almost did. I wasn't until he startled me. I fell.

" Look at me Dahlia" he demands strongly. I looked at him" what?" I asked broke.

Half naked. In his hoodie. He probably saw how ugly I was.

He stares at me " Were you?" He demands to know.

" I was, but I changed my mind before you scared me" I bluntly stated.

" Yeah, sure, changed your mind before I startled you?" He asks.

I scoffed" You don't understand anything Reed, you don't the self hatred I have, I can barely stand looking at myself" A tears spills out of my eye.

" Somedays, I do want to kill myself" I got out and started walking away from the house.

" Dahlia! Stop!" He shouts at me. I jolt and ignored him.

" Don't make me get you!" He threats. I rolled my eyes hugging myself" I don't care, you don't care!" I become freezing cold.

He suddenly grabs and throws me over his should and walks back of the the house.

I kick and tell him to let me go. But he ignores me. He walks into a door with stairs" Just be quiet ok?" He sets me down annoyed by me.

I sniffed" Just let me go home Reed" I whispered. He shakes his head 'no'

I huffed" Fine" Im exhausted. I just want to rest. I want to sleep.

He takes me downstairs" Bathrooms in there, warm up" he nods sniffing. I go into the bathroom and feel awkward.

I locked the door and  started up the shower. Big bathroom. I sniffed and just let go. I get into the warm shower.

The warmth covers my skin. I relax a bit and nod off.

I rubbed my face and rubbed my arms warm. I should probably come out.

I peeked out and saw he put clothes on the counter for me. I turned off the water and grabbed the towel and wrapped it around me.

I stepped out and sniffed. I grabbed the baggy shirt and pulled it on. He gave me briefs. I chuckled softly.

Should I wear theses? I don't have underwear, I
Don't care. I slide them on and pulled on the sweats. His clothes smell good.

I like this smell. I don't know what it is. I dried off my hair and pulled it up into a bun.

I held out my arms. His shirt went to my elbows. I huffed and looked around for a hoodie or something. I grabbed a random hoodie hanging up ont he door and slid it on.

I walked out. He was sitting on a bed and drying off his hair. I looked away" Thanks" I whispered.

His attention goes to me" For what?" He asks standing up. He was changed already. In sweats and a wife beater.

Damn.

I rubbed my arms" For not telling anyone and forcing me to talk to you" I whispered shyly.

" really? I wouldn't say forcing" he smirks. I rolled my eyes" No, forcing" I stated.

" Alright, convincing you" he shrugs. I huffed" Demanding" I list.

He gets closer" No, Suggesting" he folds his arms.

I yawned" Not even close, convincing is better" I nod.

He chuckles " Fine, Convinced you to tell me"