Captured

Chapter 1 The Beginning

I'm so in love right now. Gary is amazing, He's my best friend. What can I say ? I didn't plan on falling for him ... My love for him .. it's sickening. I can tell it's going to be toxic.

I have a journey ahead of me .. What am I thinking? He's with Jane ! But more than anything I just wish he was mine, I wish I could hug him tight and kiss his and just be with him .

He doesn't even act like he's happy with her anymore. I can't do this ! Laney What are you thinking! Just bury your feelings, they won't matter! Shit! My phone is ringing ... Oh great it's Gary...

Me- "Hey Gare , What's up? "

Gary- "I need your help , me and Jane are arguing again. She's kind of getting annoying... "

Me- "Well you know I'm all ears, what's up ? "

Gary- "She's getting annoying and we argue about everything!! I'm getting tired of this relationship Laney!!... I just feel different about her. I used to feel like I was so in love with her but now it's like ........like I just wonder why I even got with her. I don't even feel like I'm in love with her anymore.

I mean like i feel terrible but I can't help my feelings ..

To be honest I'm kind of falling for someone. Like this girl is legit amazing she's always there for me and she gets me. We can be so weird and different together. But I'm scared that she doesn't feel that way.

What should I do? What should I say? What about Jane? "

I'm sitting here thinking WHAT THE F#CK??! ! Oh MY GOSH ! THIS SUCKS.... ,WHY CAN'T YOU LOVE ME ! PICK ME !! But instead I gather my thoughts, put my feelings aside. Deeply inhale and exhale, thinking on the right thing to tell him, then I calmly say

"Well Gary if these are your honest feelings your telling me you need to come clean with Jane. Girls appreciate guys who are honest, remember what I told you? Us girls rather be hurt and know the truth, than to live a complete lie. Just call her and speak how you feel, she might be heartbroken but she is a strong girl. She will keep her head up and move on. You guys don't need to be together if you feel that way, and as for this "Girl" your falling for, I have to say I'm very pissed off you haven't told me about this.

We are best friends, you tell me everything! Well so I thought, everything! But anywho, don't tell her your feelings yet , just give it a little more time to see if your feelings are real for her --"

"They are real !! I know They are Laney !! She's not like any other girl I've ever even spoken to !"

Me " Will you just shut the hell up and listen?! ! Sometimes your heart tries to manipulate you into thinking your in love with someone. Your mind and your heart has to tell you the same thing, trust me, just give it a little more time, and you will know weather or not you are in love or honestly falling for this girl okay ?

Gary-"Okay I guess your right. Thanks Laney. I need to break up with Jane and just cool it on relationships, but I do plan on winning this other girl over and telling her"

Me -"Yeah yeah whatever , your welcome Ass face"

" Feel the love " he laughs

Me - Well Gary I have to go clean up really fast , talk to you later okay ?

Gary - Okay , text me .!!

Me - Okay , bye " As I hang up I scream What The Flying Fuck?! ! Ughh !

Why the hell does this just HAVE to happen to me ... I want to tell him how I feel so bad . But how do I break the news to him when we are best friends? How do I keep my heart from falling to my ass! Every time I try to get the courage to speak up as soon as the words get ready to come out .

My lips start to tighten. The biggest lump gets in my throat and forces the words to go back to my heart and brain. I don't know maybe this is a sign that I'm just not ready to tell him yet. Ugh whatever I can't deal with this right now. I pick up my laundry and throw it in the washer, then scramble up my clean clothes and put them in my basket.

I get up stairs, start folding clothes then my phone starts to buzz like crazy. Ha its gary!!

"Laney I told you to text me!! "

" Laney Wtf are you doing! "

" Laney!!! "

" effing answer my texts! "

I finally reply "Chill assface I'm folding my clothes, what's up ? Miss me already ? "

" Duh I missed you! I'm bored! love me? "

" Gary shut up , soo whos this lovely girl your oh so in love with? "

I hit the send button and sit here anxiously waiting , laying on my bed .....