oops I fell in love with my best friend

are you sure ?

Ryans pov

I feel like I'm not good enough for him . He is just so much better than me. I don't even think he likes me. He probably isn't even gay or bi. He is probably straight. All these thoughts are swirling around my head. I started to have a panick attack. Benson was asleep next to me. As far as he knows I'm never suicidal or anything.

Trigger warning

I make my way into the bathroom and scramble around looking for something sharp. Finally I found a broken razor in the garbage. I turned on the shower so Benson would think I was showering. I started to cry. Hard. I grabbed the razor and put it on an angle so it will go deeper. I fastly run the razor across my skin while applying pressure. I scream out in pain. I do it again and again. Soon there was ten deep cuts on my arm and blood everywhere. I grabbed my arm in pain and cried. I forgot to lock the door and benson burst into the bathroom.

He looked so sad when he saw me. I started to feel dizzy and benson was freaking out. Then everything went black.....

A/n he guys I know this is short but t it's just a filler chapter. I have a little motivation so I might post another chapter tonight. No promises. Love you guys