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This is a book of my poetry and internalized feelings , do not judge me I am a lil' sick bean.

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I am depressed

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by R0seBird

by R0seBird

hello *waves* I am depressed.

Ive been depressed for a long time.

I have no one to talk to that I want to place this burden on.

Even though im super depressed, music is nice. In a way, its my escape. My friends get annoyed with me singing all the time, but the truth is im not singing because the song is in my head. Im singing because I want to ignore what is in my head.

I have come to terms with the fact that I am worth nothing to anyone. If I died, no one would miss me.

Im so tired of trying, I don't want to anymore. I want to be able to wake up and not put makeup on. I'll probably never be able to do that, there are to many reasons to list.

I currently don't have my phone, so I cant talk to my friends unless its at school. I have 5 days of school left (im not going the last day). I wont be able to spend my 9 month anniversary with my girlfriend (June 4th 2017).

People keep asking me if theyre my best friend, but most of the time the answer is no. I have a very short list of my bestfriends (all in the correct ranking):

Taylor L,

Sarah S,

Maggie R,

Bro,

Maci H.

I also have the squishie squad, but I barely ever get to talk to most of them.

I wish I was a good friend.