Self-Inflicted Achromatic

Chapter 5

Your POV

Weeks has gone and Miku still following me to the rooftop. I told her to find a friend rather than clinging at me all day long when we first met but somehow, I start like her present here. Besides, I do need and deserve to have a friend like everybody else, don't I?

"(Y/n)...you're daydreaming again..." A  hand waving at me, try to gain my consciousness. I snapped out from my depressing imagination and look at her. "Wha...what did just happen?! Oh, its you," I said, looking the teal pig-tailed hair girl that was trying to hold her laugh but failed.

"You know it isn't funny Miku," I said as I give a glare at her to make her stop.

The teal hair girl finally stop her laugh as she wipe her tears at the the corner of her teal eyes. "Sorry. But you look so funny when you panic."

I roll my eyes, feeling quite annoyed with her statement. "Yeah, whatever!" I said. Even though her words are quite annoying but I can feel the concern within her voice. her happy-looking face seems to hide something from me, as if she's been hiding something from me.

I look to the sky...seems too cliche for an anime story...try to rid the confusement that's bothering my head when Miku suddenly broke the silence.

"I'm glad to have a friend like you." Her words puzzled me. What did she mean by 'friend like me'?

"What do you mean by that?" I ask her and I turn my head only to see her tears filling her eyes. "Miku..." My voice stuck when I see her starts to cry. For the first time, I lost my words. Unable to speak, my mind was empty as I've never comfort a crying person nor a crying friend.

I tried to calm her as I can as have no experience on doing this. Soon, her cry turn into a soft sob and she finally calm down.

"Thanks (y/n) and sorry about just now. I've never let anyone see me cry," she said as sobs escape from her mouth.

"I know its rude for me to ask this but, why are you crying? I know its none of my business and I shouldn't ask such a question like that. I'm sorry." I don't have the courage to look at her face as guilt filling my chest. What if she mad at me and leave me alone, like I've always been through for all this years?

But the bad thought soon been interrupt by her soft pat on my shoulder. I turn my gaze from the floor to see her smiling weakly. Her smile somehow makes my heart ache so much. I can feel my eyes stinging and tears filling up. How can she smile when the world was a cruel place for both of us? How can she do that? What give her the spirit to smile? Everyday she makes me confuse. She makes me think about my existence.

My heart hurt too much. I tried to hold it a little longer but I failed and spill my whole emotions in front of her. I cupped my face with my both hands and cry. The emotions that I hold for so long, burdening me for a long time finally I let it out in front of a girl I barely know for a month.

Seeing my fragile state, Miku then pull me into her embrace as she try to comfort me. I try to calm down slowly. Small sob can be heard.

"Why, why it should have to be us? Why you smile when you know the world disappoint you? Why?" I ask her with sobs escape from my mouth. I know it is not manly when a boy just cry but it hurt so much and the feeling keep haunting me everyday.

She pat my back slowly as she answered. "I don't know. I just don't know. I don't have the answer."

I hold her back tightly, as if she will disappear from my embrace. I hope she will not disappear from my sight. I love her very much.

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Yay! For two weeks I've finally post this story! Sorry for the quite long hiatus but my phone just pissed me off and it broke. I usually update my stories using my phone but it broke and I can't update it anymore.

But I feel thankful that last Friday was the starting of holiday of Raya, I finally got the chance to update on my computer.

Anyway, thank you for patiently wait this story to update and Happy Raya Day for the muslims who celebrate it! Before you could comment anything, I'm not a muslim. So I don't celebrate it but feel happy to say it. Besides, I'm a Malaysian.

Don't forget to vote and comment this story and sorry for the slight depressing emotions just now.

P/S: For the next two chapter will be a flashback about what happen to Reader and Miku-chan's life.