S P I L T ° Phillip Gallagher

[9] Wonders

    He spoke to me with passion and interest, it made me feel wanted, happy, made me wanna forget about the real me and smile. 

"I haven't seen your dad home in a while."

"Yeah,  he's never home.", I said groggy.

He nodded looking at the ground then back at me, "Why are you in long sleeves? Its almost summer."

My heart sank as I stayed quiet. Looking at me my guilt grew stronger.

"Cmon you gotta have reason.", he chuckled. "What is daddy beating you?", he chuckled trying to be funny. I forced a laugh. Lip stopped in his tracks when we were on top of a slight hill and sat down, I looked at him then looked around with a chuckled.

"Why are you sitting?"

"Answer the question."

"You are being childish Lip, cmon.", I said pulling on his arm with a smile. He pulled me down quickly making me sit next to him, I sighed before looking down.

"Cmon what is it, I'll beat him up."

I chuckled once more, "Yeah I know."

"Then is he?"

"It's nothing serious.", I said blocking him off.

He help his hand  out and looked at me seriously with a almost fatherly look.

"What?", I said awkwardly.

"Lemme see if you wont tell me."

"What?! No way!"

He nodded quickly then grabbed my arm trying to quickly see but instead grabbed the part I just pricked this morning and I yelped nearly screaming while yanking me arm back.

"What the hell? Are you really that hurt?"

"Just, don't do that.", I froze up practically like a deer in headlights before storming off going back home.

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Several hours later I sat on my bed just getting back from my new plug in. This guy I was buying from had everything and I couldn't help but buy practically everything. I was gonna sell stuff I don't use any ways. I got more syringes first off with 10 grams of its delirious black tar to go inside, 15 grams of crystal with his old bowl, two pain pills that I wont use, and 38 grams of home grown bud. Quite the excited girl I was while loading up my syringes. My mouth watered at the excitement for new types to try and I got excited and decided to shoot up now. Yes. Right now. The moment felt right, being upset with Lip and getting more. I felt ready for more. I locked my door then sat on my bed and took my shirt off. Tying this several tied together balloons around my arm felling my pulse beat in my should made me excited. My fingers started to go numb when I grabbed my love. The heart beat quickened with the needle broke the skin of the bulged vein in my inner elbow. I froze, then pushed it all in slowly feeling my body flush around. The feeling I cant have by myself filled my body as I undid the balloons. Leaning back slowly with a sigh, I started to  drift off while happy.