Due to popular request, here's part two!
Harry’s heart picked up as he clutched the cellphone in his hand tightly. “El! I think Louis hurt himself!!” he yelled frantically before running out of her flat. He sprinted the short distance back to his and Louis’ falt, tears streaming down his face the whole way. He ran into the flat, instantly seeing the multiple envelopes on the coffee table. His breath hitched as he ran to Louis’ room, not being able to see his lover. He looked around frantically, finally seeing a glimpse of light coming from the bathroom. He ran into it, freezing instantly at the scene he saw. He would never be able to get that image out of his head.
One whole week had passed, yet to Harry it felt like a year. He was a shell, uncapable of feeling. The only thing running through his head was the sight of Louis’ pale body in the bathtub filled with water and his own ruby blood. He was currently returning to his flat for the first time since finding Louis’ body.
As he walked into the flat, all he could feel was a coldness surrounding him. An eery feeling going around the whole place. His eyes shifted around what he used to call a home, only to fall on the envelope that was still on the coffee table. The police had taken the other letters to give them to whom it was addressed to. Harry hadn’t had the strength to open his yet. He was afraid that his mask would falter, making him feel any emotion at all. The curiosity had finally gotten the best of him as he strolled over to the couch, letter in hand. He sat down, with his breathing shallow, he opened the letter up and began reading.
‘Harry… My dearest Harry…
By the time you read this, I will be gone. I will have finally found my peace, a place where I can relax and forget about all the bad things that have been going on.
Knowing you, you’re going to try to hide all your feelings… you’re going to keep them all bottled up until some day you’ll end up exploding… Please… please don’t do that, it’ll just hurt you worse. That’s exactly what I’ve done, and look where I am now.
I know you’re going to be angry with me. What I did was selfish but you have to understand it was the only way.
I’m sorry I couldn’t be good enough for you Harry… I’m sorry you had to find someone better. I wasn’t there for you when you needed me. I blame myself for all of this Haz. I love you… so much. You’ll never know how much I loved you. I couldn’t bare the thought of losing you.
Please, please take care of Eleanor okay? She deserves to have someone as flawless as you… she’s an amazing girl and you both will get less hate from society. Harry, we were never meant to be. The world was never going to accept us for who we were, so I spared us the embarrasment.
I used to say I would never be able to live without you, of course I hadn’t quite believed it because I thought we were never going to be apart. But as you began falling in love with El… I realized that it was true. I couldn’t live without you. You were my everything. Every breath I took, every step I made, every beat of my heart was for you. I guess you never really wanted any of it.
I love you Harry… forever and always remember?
Love,
Louis William Tomlinson.’
And that’s when Harry knew… that’s when he realized. He had loved Louis all along. He was just afraid of everything. His cowardness had driven Louis to suicide. That was something he would never forgive himself for. He knew exactly what he was going to do to get rid of all these feelings. He felt the tears streaming down his face uncontrollably as he stood up from the couch. He went to one of their closets that contained their camping supplies. Taking out a large, thick rope he stood on a chair and tied one end of the rope to the ceiling, the other around his neck. Clutching the letter in one hand, he kicked the chair out from under his feet.
Harry Styles had promised his boyfriend they would be together forever and always…
Harry Styles never broke his promises.
Prompt: Oh my gosh can you continue the Larry prompt where Louis cuts because of Harry and Eleanor, but Harry realizes how much he loves Louis and kills himself to be with him. -Anonymous
