Grateful Angel(On Hold)

12:00

He's here....

"Shy! Get your ass down here!

I stop talking to myself and grab some pants. I look around me and grab one of his shirts. I run down the hall and stop by Lilac's door to make sure she's sleep.

"Fucking bitch! Where the fuck are you?"

I close her door and give myself a few seconds to prepare. Just avoid any confrontations...make him happy...dont panic... I run down the hall and down the stairs. I stop at the bottom.

"What took you so long?"

Keep him calm.

"I was putting on some clothes."

He stares at me with alcohol dancing in his eyes. He takes a few steps my way. I take a few back. He stops and points to the kitchen.

"What is that?"

I hesitantly look over to the kitchen and find it the way I left it. My throat dries up. What was wrong? Is it too clean? I look around confused then look at him.

"What am I looking for?"

"What else?" He sternly points to a splatter of ketchup on the side of the counter. Is he serious?

"That wasn't there before."

"You calling me a liar?!"

"No No! I'm just saying--"

" It sounds like you calling me a liar!"

"Baby! You are not a liar, I would never say such a thing...you know that."

He looks like he calming down. He is still staring at me. He swiftly moves toward me and grabs my waist. Fear rises in my throat and I'm breathing hard. I can feel the pain coming. I close my eyes and wait for impact.

One..

Two..

Three..

Four seconds go by in complete silence. I dare to open my eyes and find two light green pleading eyes. Is he going to cry?

" Are you scared of me?"

"I don---"

"Why are you scared of me?"

"I'm not." Keep him calm. Control his mood. He's drunk.

" Why did you close your eyes?"

" I thought--"

"I would never hurt you...you know that right? The bruises you have were you. You know that right?"

" Why would I hurt myself?" Wait, no. Wrong comment. He's mad now.

" Oh! You think I hurt you? I can hurt you if you want me to. Is that what you want? You make me do this. You get what you ask for."

*Smack*

I fall to the floor with a hard bang. On the way down, I hit my head on the counter. I see black dots and all I taste is metal. He's picking me up now which my head screams to. I can hear his mumbling and disagreeing but I'm too fucked up right now to fight back.

" Baby...please...put me down...I'm hurt." I'm crying now, not because I'm in pain but because I know what is to come. We go through this every night. I'm tired and my bones are weak. He slams me on the bed and gets on top of me. I muster up some courage to yell. It comes out more like a whisper because he is crushing my lungs now.

"Karim..Get off me! I can't breathe!!"

Im crying harder because the sad reality of this situation is finally catching up to me. I thrash under him trying to get atleast a slither of air to my lungs. He's actually gonna kill me today.

"You think you can talk to me any type of way? Nah bitch, I'm in charge. I work for your bitch ass and this is how you treat me? No one disrespects me..NO ONE!"

I feel light-headed but I take long deep breathes when I feel his body weight lift off me. My tears are blurring my vision now and I can't think straight. When I wipe my tears away, I feel a slight breeze near my torso. I look down to see him pulling up my shirt. My hands immediately find his.

"Baby no. please."

"You need to learn not to disrespect me."

"I dont want to...I've learned my lesson...please dont."

Our hands are fighting each other but he is much stronger. We've done this a million times but it scares me every time. I don't want to do this. I want him to leave me alone. I just want us to be a normal couple. He finally pins me down with his knees. I dare not scream because I don't want to wake up Lilac. He knows this so he takes advantage. I lay there helpless once again and let him have his way.

Oh, he loves me right? psshh.

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-Kamora