ill and well, hate and love, girl and boy, Summer and Conor!
Will Summer age 19 get on with Conor age 22 when her mum accepts a new job being Conor's music producer,
Will fame go to Conor head when his first album gets release to the public and
Will...
It was now Monday and i knew Conor would be around working with my mum so Jack will probably be with him to keep me company today. I had a few messages from George asking if I'm okay and if he can see me, i haven't said yes or no to be honest i haven't even messaged him back, i just need some time to think about who i love and who i want because i don't want to be one of them girls who go from one lad to another when one is busy or has pissed me of, it may look like that at the moment but I'm not that type of girl, i will be more strict and chooses one. But i don't love Conor like how i did Jamie but its different but I'm stopping whatever was going on with me and Conor he isn't just going to kiss me like he did and I'm not going to encourage it, we are just friends thats all....but not even that....
It is a heatwave in Britain for the next few weeks but no doubt it will be raining a few days in that time. I love the heat but i can get so cold as well even if its 30degree, i remember one time me, Jamie, Jake and my mum were on holiday in Grease and it was 45degree and i was on the beach in my bikini but also in a Jack Wills zip up hoodie because i was so cold that my skin went black because the circulation can't get around my body quick enough another health problem i have, anyway I'm getting of topic so I'm now going to get washed and dressed:
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I decided on a slight crop top but pair it with a tartan shirt and high waisted shorts for two reason one because i thought it looked really cute and the second to hide my scars and holes in my stomach, they are not so much on my front near my belly button but above it and on my sides it is a mess with scars lumps and holes which i call my extra belly buttons. It was only 10.30am when i got done so i decided to get back on my bike and BMXing not down at the park but in my garden, so i did, i put my beats pill on turned it up and paired it with my phone on Spotify and off i went on the ramp with my bike.
Its scary at first after you haven't been on it for a long time i stepped on the pedals and put my hands on the handlebars and a rush of anxiety came over me but soon went when i done my first bunny hop in a month. It felt good very good and then to the beat of the music i was off making up a type of routine to fit the beat and me in the air on the bike. I couldn't hear much from the slight wind and the music so if anyone came they would have to wait till the song finished. I stoped at the end of the song and bent over to catch my breath and i could hear claps from the porch, i looked up to find My mum and Jack clapping for me except from Conor, i was feeling a bit faint and wobbly probably because i haven't had any breakfast and Jack came running over to catch me...
Thanks Jack i said breathlessly, no problem he said happily. As Jack guided me to the back door Conor gave me a evil look, which made me feel a little threatened to be honest. My mum was in the producing room getting everything set up for Conor, and us three were in the kitchen me and Jack were sat on the table whilst Conor was near the fridge, i stood up to go wash my plate in the sink and when i walked over Conor moved over so he was in the way of the sink. I didn't want to say anything or Jack would know something was up between us both, i just stood there looking up at him whilst he was looking down at me with no expression on his face, just blank. It was only when i started to get a bit wobbly when his expression changed so quickly to concerned as he took the plat of me and i jumped up on the counter facing the ground...
Conor's point of view:
I was going to start playing games with her, just showing her of what she could of had and make her feel bad about our situation i mean were we together was it just a swing but without the sex i don't know, but i was driving me crazy. I was playing hard to get first of we were all outside and she finished her stunts and everyone clapped except me and when she nearly collapsed i didn't go over it was jack and i gave her a evil look when she walked past. Us three were in the kitchen when she got up to wash her plate up that i got in her way, she didn't do anything thought except from keep looking over at jack who's back was towards us sat down at the table, she started to get wobbly again and she held onto the counter until i started to get worried about her and took the plate of her to put in the sink and helped her up on the counter which she turned down and just looked towards the floor.
Summers point of view:
Its been a few hours now since Jack and Conor has arrived me and Jack just spent the whole day outside on the deck chairs talking whereas Conor was inside recording new songs he regally came outside with a drink and sat down near the fence with us and gave me a small smile if we met eye contact which was quite a lot, he didn't say much though just laughed a bit and then left and then came back. My mum asked Conor and Jack to stay for tea tonight which they both said yes to but Conor's yes wasn't as sure as Jacks, i don't know whats going on with him he's fine with My mum and Jack but not me, after i started noticing things weren't right with Conor and me i wasn't as cheerful around him, you know its called getting hard to get...
After i finished tea Conor and Jack both helped mum to clear the table and wash the pots, so i decided to go upstairs to my room to chill for a bit on my own. I heard a knock on my door and i said come in it was Conor...
Conor's point of view:
Something wasn't right with Summer now she's been awfully quiet around me now but fine with Jack and Kate which confused me a lot so i decided to go see whats up with her, I told Jack and Kate i was wiping to the toilet upstairs when actually i was going to see Summer, so i knocked on the door and waited for a answer 'come in'..
Her facial expression completely went when she noticed it was me, i went and sat down on a chair and asked her whats wrong. Whats wrong? you she said quickly, what do you mean me i haven't done nothing i argued back. Yes you have you have seen me struggle twice now and you haven't came to help your younger brother has instead. Yeah because you said yesterday you wanted nothing to do with me so I'm just doing what you say, i argued back. Well it hasn't stoped you any other time has it, she cockily said back. I had no words. She was right. Look you may have feelings for me Conor but i told you it won't happen she said with slight tears in her eyes. Do you have feelings for me, i asked, No, fine thats all i wanted to hear, i won't be like that then around you i will just be your friend then. Good. She stood and so did i, ready to walk back downstairs when i went in for a hug and she excepted it...
