i've missed you
i miss the way you spoke to me
our jokes, our laughs, and the way we trust
just as everything was fine it all changed
as if a tornado came and tore up our feelings from the ground and yanked out of our hands the stability we felt, it was horrifying
how in a matter of days everything we knew became distorted
i suddenly craved your attention, my chest swelled with pride when i saw you look at me from a distance.
with every chance to see you i took by the handles and steered into my direction
when our eyes met whenever anyone would mention our attachment.
feeling the bile shoot up my throat when someone talked about her but calmed
when a burning sensation that ran throughout my body as i caught you staring at my lips, at my face, at me
with your hooded eyes and rough hands on my thigh
my heart beat turned crazy as time seemed to slow when you look at me
a good kind of crazy, you wreck havoc on my emotions
our friends motion to us that they see it coming
i wonder if they can see straight through us,through me? i sometimes question what they see.
mostly because i want to know what you keep inside your mind.
i know you've thought about it before
about making this something more but what do you feel?
do you dream of what could be if we let open all the windows, throw caution out the door and let things run its course?
or do you find staying in the shadows of probability safer than most, afraid that if things end up being destroyed
is your heart filled with joy now with everything in it's prime
you as you are with girls all around
and me as myself with no one as mine
