Dear someone
I have so many questions I want to ask you but just don't know how (What a typical unfortunate alternative way to start it dumb meh). I know for a fact that that my voice would break and tears would start streaming down my face if I were to ask you in person, knowing you wouldn't even listen to me in the first place, who would listen to a maniac hoe as myself?
How? that s my first question, how was it so easy for you to go? To just leave me and not even look back? (It wasn't as easy for you at first considering how you were and everyone's expectations and questions on us including your parents probably?)
Why? I can fool myself by the excuse you gave me explaining your leaving but notwithstanding, why would you leave like that? No explanation. no real goodbye. nothing but unforgettable memories and a yearning me. Was it even real? What we had, I mean, was it? Because I've been dreaming about you lately nearly every night that it seems I can't tell what's real and what is not anymore.
Love, I wish you didn't shatter my heart (olala très poetique). You didn't make all these promises just to break them apart, did you? I still want to believe in you. I wish that you could have been honest and straightforward with me since the beginning, honest about your intentions and your feelings for me (actually you was, I'm the one to blame). I love you.
Back in time, the last time we were standing in front of each other, looking into your deep black eyes made my knees go weak and my heart beats faster. You gave me all of yourself making me your favorite person in this shitty world, and I did likewise. I think it s no longer the same case anymore.
I hope that a part of you never forgets about me (you can't I guess? I'm your biggest mistake, a source of pain). Sorry, I love you.
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For whoever got to read this shit, excuse meh, m too emotional recently since I started taking pills n stuff, ik it s way too corny, excuse me. Kill meh plez.
