Love, the word that I despised and loathed the most up until back then, it simply was too corny and too cringy to talk and even hear about, it's nothing but some temporary chemical reactions in the brain.
Come to think about it, I was like any other human being; unconsciously and by instinct, I was fearing and avoiding the unexpected, the inexperienced, in other words, I was escaping the inescapable.
By a simple message from you, a simple word from you, a simple glace from you, I felt revived, to be more precise I felt alive for the very first time in my life, when I'm with you, the most beautiful and manly creature in this empty planet, I felt like a human.
I've always felt ugly, which is true; every time I look in the mirror I see nothing but a female version of my father, a man that I feel nothing toward, not even a simple sensation of hate, a man that I acknowledged the fact that he had green eyes only after his funeral, in which I didn't cry a single tear; you made me feel beautiful, worth living. Therefore I started acting on my own for the first time, trying to look good accordingly to your values and taste, deciding whether to do this or that on my own, i finally discovered the truthful meaning of responsibility, how horrifying and wonderful it is to have and have expectations on.
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Excuse my eng again, not a native speaker.
