Jennifer's POV
"Pregnant"
That was the pregnancy test say.. when I tested myself and I am really pregnant...
I am pregnant...
I am carrying now his child.., I have his kid but the father of this innocent human being isn't here.., with me...He left..,
I ask myself, why?
And I realized that these all the punishments for me for leaving him behind back then...
Today is my graduation day...Finally...I am finishing this now. I am happy. So happy but why does it feel like I'm still sad..?
Is it because the one I was expecting to be with me on this special day isn't here? That he will not even watch me receive my diploma on stage..?
No matter how I try to stay confident and force myself to be brave, I still can't...
He became part of me and that's how much the impact of Harry on me
It's still huge.., that I can't even think how my life would be without him
I wiped my tears..., I had enough...I cried my eyes last night and that is enough...I promised myself that I will never cry again...
I put some makeup on my face as I fixed myself and get my toga that was laying on my bed.,
I looked myself in the mirror as I was massaging my tummy.., and smiled
"At least, I have you.." I said and I couldn't help it but release a tear...
"Lopez, Jennifer Lynn"
The emcee called my name as I made myself walked toward her to receive my diploma
"Congratulations.." She said and smiled as she wore me my medals
And I think she noticed my face
"Hey, Smile. It's your special day..you have to smile.." She said smiling as I nodded my head and gave her a small smile
"Thank You," I said as we shook hands., The people in the auditorium clapped their hands. I looked at them as I realized that finally.., I am graduated now... Yes after so many nightmares and pains that I've been through in so many years, I still made it...I still had a chance to prove that there is no end when you really want to get what you're passionate with
"Congrats to us, baby.." I mumbled as I pressed my hand against my tummy and didn't realize that I was teary..,
I looked at the crowd.., they're clapping as I imagine that Harry is there.., clapping for me too..but even his shadow isn't there...
I bit my lip as I made my way down the stage and saw William seating on the chair. He is just looking at me.., I think he knows exactly what he did to me but instead of rolling my eyes on him, I mouthed him,
"Congrats."
And I smiled, at first he got shocked but he smiled back at me.
The ceremony was done and I saw my classmates and other students, hugging, embracing, kissing their family. I feel jealous, I wish my Dad is still here with me.., all he wanted for me is to finish my college
They all looked so happy with their loved ones.., and here I am...alone...with no one.
I just shook my head and smiled as I walked outside the auditorium
When someone called my name, it's a woman
I turned back and saw Ms. Valentina
She smiled as she walked closer to me. I awkwardly smiled back
"Oh Hi, Ms. Valentina. You uhm, you look good."
"Oh, thanks but you look gorgeous too! And I wanted to say Congratulations to you.." She smiled
Even though I used to hate her for being so sticky to Harry, I still can't deny the fact that she is nice and stunning
"Thank You. I appreciated it.." I said
"Good." She said as she nodded her head
"So uhm.., I really hope, you and Harry are going to be okay, Ms. Jennifer.." She said as I got froze for a moment...
I wrinkled my forehead and startled
"Oh, but we have nothing... Me and Sir Harry are nothing.."
"Oh come on Jennifer. I know the truth. Harry told me.." She smiled
I am confused..,
"Harry told me 1 month ago that you two have something special going on so when the news came that he forced himself to you, I didn't believe.., None of you deserves a punishment but I guess, Harry did it and choose to go away for you to be saved..he really loves you.." She said and there are some sparks in her eyes when she says the last part
I got teary for a moment.., I just can't hide it anymore but to release more tears...
She pulled me to her and hugged me as she rubs softly my back
Then I remembered when I left him behind back then.., I did a thing and made a choice just for him to be saved because I love him..., very much...
Will he return...? When? I hope it's not 10 years after..
"It's okay..it's okay.." She whispered. We slowly pulled away from each other
"Thank You," I said and smiled as I wiped my tears
She gave me a small smile
"I uhm.., I should probably go..I still have so many works to do at home"
"Okay.." She chuckled
"Good Bye," I said
"Good Bye."
I am walking in the park of the University, the park when I usually... when we usually go often when we're on a break...I remember those days and I can't help it but to smile and be remembered those silly moments of us
This park has a lot of memories...the trees.., the grass...the bench where we used to kiss and almost make out back then..we were so silly and we just laughed when someone caught us. We even used to fight here when we had misunderstandings but he will do anything just to please me and make me forgive me,
This is the place too when I first met Charlize when she was younger., I remember her chasing a butterfly and until now, she still loves to chase them and release onwards
I sat on the bench and just feel the fresh air...,
It's good to remember those unforgettable memories of us cause I feel happy. But I guess, I have to be brave now, braver not only for me but also to my kid...
Destiny will do a way for us to be reconnected...I know it...This is not the first time for us. We've been through a lot and I know that someday
He will return. I know he will..,
And I can't wait for that day to come...I can't wait for his embrace and kisses...
I sniffed softly and wiped my tears with my hand when a hanky suddenly appeared on my right side
"No..Thank You. I think I can handle it on my own..," I said as I refused.
