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Value of School : Learn Do Not Compete

Value of School : Learn Do Not Compete

School mirrors Life it teach us how to learn not to compete. Way back in my younger years I thought school is all about competition. It teach us how to be on top, to be the best that you can be. From examinations, recitations, performance and intelectual capacity there's always a competition. They always figure out who among the best of everything. They let out the monster of intelligence in you. Then, one day I found myself in a corner competing for what I've got. I was in my primary days when I found out that I have the capacity to compete. I had that eagerness to challenge myself in every interaction I do. I always let my competitors challenged in their learning capacity.

In my puberty stage I became more competitive in everything. In the society that I had I need to fit in. It was my worst days. I felt like it wasn't right. I am in the agony of having confusions in myself. I had that feeling of being lost. I want something else, I want to prove that I am beyond their expectations. But somehow my sexual preference did not. It turns back to me, letting them dictate my actions, my decisions. Letting the society decide for who I am in front of everyone.

I was in fear during my middle school days. I was wasted, a hot headed pretentious teenager trying to fit in. In the society that he was never belong. Ended up crying and striving in the past of a beautiful childhood. A happy family ruined by his sexual preference. I felt like I ruined my dreams, specially my family's dream for me to become a lawyer. So I run away from home at the age of 16 I went to Manila, the place where I wished I was belong with. I went to Makati for such despiration of being accepted by the society. My endeavor turns out challenging myself alone. Trying to cope up with people and the environment where I realized that it was difficult to deal with.

My Manila life was the worst days of all, it took me gratitude to go with the flow. It took up my pride to deal with strange people. People who always deal with price. Savage people who worsened the competition of life. I hate it! I hate those days because those days were the days that I learned to deal with the value of price tags. I used to deal with life. It was the worst chapter of my teenage life. When my sexual side awakened. To feel the happiness once more, the contentment that I thought. But I was wrong, it was just worsened my capacity of living.

Here I am, reminiscing those days that my teenage life went trough. Talking about my past and took them as an inspiration in every interaction I do. Of course I am happy. My experienced teach me how to deal life with perspiration. It teach me how to enjoy life without hesitation of being accepted by the society.

In my 22 years of existence I learned a lot. About life , dreams, passion , love and diversity. I learned that there is hope and success in every failure. There is light after darkness. The society that I want to fit in turn out as my only fear. My fear ruined my dreams and passion. I was devastated and decided to came back to Batangas. My failures in Manila make me decide to came back home. My family accept me for what I have become. They accept me with an open arms and start a new life.

I go back to schol in a campus where I learn to meditate when pressure choke me. I enrolled and choose what my passion is, my passion begins with learning and studying new things. Not competing with life. Later I realized that school can be fun without pressure.

Now, I am a BS Psychology student in one of the prestigious university in Lipa. Chasing my dreams to fill out my desire and education is the best start. Incentivized success can be great, but having a diploma with pride and honor was the best achivement.

I know life was not easy at all. But I am willing to face my struggles and insecurities. This is not yet the end of my journey this is just the beggining!