They say you are being extremely cynical, you think something up about everything, start believing it, and don't want to think rationally.
Well, what is a cynic?
A blackjack, who's faulty vision sees things as they are, not as they ought to be.
They say think positively.
But then what is positivity?
Give it a whirl, will you?
No idea?
By positiveness we mean: Harmony, equilibrium, order, regularity, stability, consistency, unity, realness, system, government, organization, liberty, independence, soul, self, personality, entity, individuality, truth, beauty, justice, perfection, definiteness.
Now you say think positive thoughts, how can I?
The world isn't positive. The yin dominates the yang in this putrescent world. The world is on the brink of self-destruction; how then could I remain aloof?
I included beauty in the definition of positiveness.
By "beauty," I mean that which seems complete. Obversely, that the incomplete, or the mutilated, is the ugly.
Venus de Milo. To a child she is ugly. When a mind adjusts to thinking of her as a completeness, even though, by physiologic standards, incomplete, she is beautiful.
A hand thought of only as a hand, may seem beautiful. Found on a battlefield −− obviously a part −− not beautiful.
But everything in our experience is only a part of something else that in turn is only a part of still something else −− or that there is nothing beautiful in our experience: only appearances that are intermediate to beauty and ugliness −− that only universality is complete: that only the complete is the beautiful: that every attempt to achieve beauty is an attempt to give the local the attribute of the universal.
So let me be one with the universe, let the shackles of this earth no longer weigh my feet. I shall fly, I shall fly. And then when one day when you look up and admire the stars and their beauty, maybe it'll be me, whom you never even glanced in the direction of. It'll be me, the ugly, fat, socially awkward one, whose beauty you'll be admiring.
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Suicide Justified
Non-Fiction---------------------Trigger Warning------------------- Originally titled 'All the Push You Need (and a little more)' this book intends to do what it says. It'll help increase your cynicism, deepen your depression, give strength to your demons, help...
