Life is Worth the Living || UNDER EDITING

7

I should have never wished for my own Augustus Waters.

"This shit is messed up," Ariel had said to me at our normal lunch table, in the normal room, on a normal Tuesday.

But this wasn't any ordinary Tuesday.

Today, was the day. The big day. Well, probably not as big as a wedding, but you get you just. Today was the day West was going to be able to hear again.

He said he wanted to hear before anyone else's. So, I was going to leave before lunch to see him after the surgery. It might not work, and I really want it to work, but deep down I kinda don't.

I just don't want anything to change. I really hate change. Once everything changes, it like you don't even know what's going on anymore or how everything started because it's all changed.

Yeah, I really hate change.

"Yeah," I responded, "its a lot of shit to deal with too,"

"Hey," Melody said sweet like she always does and grabbed my hand, "we're here for you. We know we've been caught up in our own drama lately, but we care for you and we'll always be there for you."

Ariel grabbed my other hand also. I smiled at both of them and said, "thanks, guys. I love you so much,"

•••

It was time West was finally out of surgery. There I was, sitting in the waiting room, twisting my thumbs.

I bet if you were in that waiting room you would be thinking, what is that girl thinking of?

I had no idea what my expression was, but I think I looked scared and nervous. I kept on thinking about the future, how everything is going to be different.

West's mom had put her hand on my shoulder and said, "West is going to be okay. Everything's going to be fine."

I kept on thinking about all these words in my head

"This shit is messed up"

"But we care for you and we'll always be there for you"

"Everything's going to be fine"

All these things that people were telling me made me fell a little scared, but not alone.

Then I remembered.

I forgot to tell my friends and West about Liam. I need their advise because I don't know who to pick.

For a couple minutes, I just thought about Liam. Then the doctor had called my name.

"Luna," the doctor had yelled. She was a gorgeous doctor. You could tell that she also didn't wear very much makeup.

"That's me," I said somewhat shyly, but I couldn't help it. I was too nervous.

"West has requested that just you would be in the room with him as we see if the surgery worked. However, a doctor has to be present and we have to do the test. Is that okay with you?" The doctor had asked me.

"Y-yes,"

"Then lets go,"

We walked down what it felt like endless hallways. Really, it was probably like two or three. It felt like everything started to move slower as I got closer and closer into the room.

Then, we had finally gotten to the room.

I swear it felt like I was about to throw up.

I went into the room. I had no idea what I was really going to see.

"Okay, Luna," the doctor said while connecting something to West's ear. "After we've connected the cochlear implant hearing device, I'll ask West a few questions and then I'll leave the room for a couple minute so that you can talk."

I nodded in agreement, still as could be.

She sat in a chair next to a machine and then said, "Okay, West, can you hear me?"

"Yes," he said, sounding, actually, very normal. He was smiling ear to ear and looked at me. Of course, that made me smile back.

"How does my voice sound? Is it a little squeaky?"

"Yeah," he responded again.

"Okay, good. It takes some time for the brain to get used to, so by Friday when you come back, it should start to sound normal. Now, I'll leave you too alone for a couple minutes to talk," the doctor said while leaving.

"Luna," he said, "I can actually hear,"

"Yeah, you never realize how much you have until it's lost," I said.

"Wow," he was still completely fascinated and stood up, "your voice. I-it's beautiful,"

He rolled his wheelchair closer to me and then said, "I didn't want to have to write this on paper, but, I um, I love you, Luna," then, he pulled me over and kissed me.

The same energy had went through me as before. At that moment, I knew that I loved him too, the same way. I had completely forgot about Liam, and finally knew that I couldn't give up West.