One "Today" At A Time

5/31/17 -Wednesday

Today was kinda fun I guess. I saw some friends and hung out with them. Two of my really good friends wouldn't shut up about my nonexistent dating life. They'd say stuff like "oh you've never had a boyfriend cause your stupid and ugly" and it was getting on my nerves. Like I will be honest. No I've never had a boyfriend. No I haven't had my first kiss. I'm 14 and quite frankly I don't care about stuff like that. I guess you can say I don't believe in love cause I really don't. Everyone who says they love me and will never leave do. No one ever does. And maybe not in a relationship kinda way but love just never works out for me. People tell me that even though I don't think people love me that they do, but if you've ever had your family say things like "if I could I would kill you right now" or " I think we adopted the wrong child" or things along those lines, maybe you would understand where I'm coming from. And maybe you think I'm over exaggerating, maybe I am I don't know. But this is my personal opinion so. So that's why I don't believe in love. I'm sure relationships are great but why waste your time when it probably won't last. Call me a pessimist. I don't care. I don't believe in love and that's why I won't waste my time dating. Sure I've been asked out multiple times but I just don't care to. I wouldn't consider myself ugly, I wouldn't consider my pretty either though so. I guess I don't want waste my life waiting for something that might not happen. Setting myself up for failure, if you will. So yeah romance ain't my thing. Now skateboards though, those are my thing. -K