From legal asst. 2 Lover

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

Alexa's pov

Jacob stayed and we talked for a while then I made him go home.

I just wasn't ready for anything beyond kissing yet.

I was still scared.

My job meant so much to me it allowed me to work towards my goal of becoming a lawyer.

Was Jacob worth screwing all that up for?

That's what scares me the most because I'm not sure he is.

I have everything to lose.

I wish I had someone to talk to about this, but sadly I don't.

I pretty much ignored all my friends for my work until they just stopped trying.

I truly felt alone.

Normally I would throw myself into work to forget my problems, but work just made me think of Jacob.

I needed to look for another job.

I couldn't continue to work with him not now that we crossed a line.

With a clear plan, I got my laptop out and started to search law offices.

I knew Jacob wouldn't be happy about this, but I needed to focus on what I needed.

A few places looked promises so I sent in my resume and crossed my fingers.

Now that I had a plan I felt myself calm down.

I didn't like feeling like I had no control over my life.

Blame on my really bad childhood.

We moved so much, and was homeless a few times.

My mom would hop from man to man.

One day to the next she never knew where we would be.

I promised I'd never let my life be like that.

I never wanted to be like her.

Jacob was a distraction I couldn't allow myself to have.

I wasn't going to ruin my life over a man like my mother did.

She was still chasing after the scum of the earth.

Calling me every other week crying and needing money.

No, I could never be like that.

I needed to get as far away from Jacob as I could.

I hated leaving the firm, but it's what needed to be done.