Playlist: Pray-Sam Smith
August P.O.V
Im not finna lie but Lana cool af. I was expecting her to be stuck up and mean or whatever. But ma look like she gat a good head on her body. Speaking of head, this broad who was giving it to me couldnt even give head properly. She gat all her spit on my dick. Have a nigga wanting to puke. "Ayo Candy u gatta go...u not even doing that shit properly. Get up out my crib" I said gagging. "Call me later boo" Candy said. I scrunched up my face in disgust...that hoe not even shame. After taking a bath and getting ready i pulled out my phone deciding to text Lena.
Zaddyauggy: hey lena what u gat planned for today.
AleneofNOLA: just work and me and my friend Gena finna hang later...why u miss me
Zaddyauggy: cocky much....but nah i dont miss your ass i was just checking to see if we could get started on that project
AlenaofNOLA: MMHHMM anyways ttyl.
Since i didnt have anything to do i decided to call my boy Chris up. "Yo Chris what you up to today....ok see you in a min." I guess i was gonna chill with him today.
I was beating his ass in 2K. This nigga couldnt even gett a fucking shot. I was literally on the floor rolling. "Only cause your black ass good at ball" "You the only black one in here nigga" I taunted. "This black ass nigga could steal your girl" He said.
"What girl?" Tears was streaming down my face cause I was laughing so hard. Me and Chris been down since diaper days. He knows my struggle and i know his. He was the only one there for me when i lost my brother. Yeah you've heard it right, I lost my brother due to gun violence and these pussy ass niggas who live by the gun. When i make it big, hopefully to the NBA my mamma finna move up out of there and in some nice suburban area.
"Boy why you dont pull your head up out yo ass staring at the t.v like you then seen chuckee." Boy shut your ass I was thinking bout mamma and Cj" "Man remember that time Cj told Ms Ruberford that her daughter didnt suck his dick she sucked his soul" That day was funny as shit. "Nah bruh it was really that day we was out on the court and Rufus big head ass kept messing with me so Cj pulled his basketball shorts and his draws down" " He had all the girls clowning him bout his short ass dick" It remained silent for a while as we reminisced.
"Yo why they had the take my brother like that bro...why they couldn't take me or some other nigga; why shit always gatta happen to me bruh. " Tears was streaming down my face explaining the hurt i had built up.
"Bruh i cant answer none of them questions for you, but just know God has a plan, everything is gonna work out for our good bro" Chris tried explaining but nah I wasn't hearing it.
"Bruh fuck that dumb shit. Thats all I been hearing since Cj been gone. God gonna do this and God gonna do that, fuck outta here with that dumb shit man" This nigga dumb just like the rest of them.
"Bruh I know u aint mean that cause your black ass grew up in church with pastor Lawrence speaking in tounges and shit; and if mama D hear you she'd beat your ass blacker and blue sounding all atheist and shit" This nigga can never be serious.
"Man get the fuck up outta my crib" I wanted to be alone right now, cause I was getting into one of my moods. "I gat some shit to dive into anyways; so bye Felicia with yo atheist ass" He said laughing at his own stale ass joke.
I waited for sleep to overcloud me as it always did when i took the "medication" but it didnt come. "1 sheep 2 sheep 3 sheep 4 sheep 5 sheep 6 sheep...
"Yo why you acting all soft" a familiar voice said. "Cccjj thats youu" I asked; I mean studdered. "Nah this Barney, who else nigga" Nah bruh this some weird shit I kissed my teeth. "Is you supposed to be a ghost?" I cant believe this shit bruh. "Why cant black people never take nothing serious, come here bruh" I walked over to him and hugged him like my life depended on it. "Bruh why he take you from me like that yo; I miss you so much you was the only nigga there for me when no one else was down, yo why he had to take you like that!!" I was exhausted, I was tired of crying like a punk;I'm just tired. "Yo mama dont even remember my name bro, God might as well go ahead and take me too aint nothing on this bitch for me to live for."
"Ant I know you going through it right now, but don't ever think on giving up. I know you mad about how things going, but that ain give you no right to curse God's name, this life wasnt promised to no one, he sent his son, his son to die. You hearing me nigga. So you need to toughen up and get your head in the game God gat something good coming your way you just gatta keep trusting and believing in him now I love you, tell mama and Chris I said i miss em; I gatta go now bruh" Cj Cj wait.
I woke up panting and gasping for air. I ran to the bathroom and throwed up everything from the previous day. Not wanting to think about anything what happened I swallowed some more of my "medication" and fell asleep.
A/n Chris in the mm. And please vote and comment how the book is going. 💓💓💓
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