Let Me Help You (Zouis)

chapter 14

Harry was practically being suffocated in Louis' arms as soon as they stepped foot in the house. He refused to let go of Harry no matter how hard Zayn tried to pry him off. Harry was quite overwhelmed from the affection his father was suddenly showing him but he wasn't going to complain. Niall was fast asleep due to the late time of ten at night and Liam was still out with his boyfriend which Louis really couldn't care less about at the moment. All that was on his mind was Harry. He couldn't be thankful enough to actually have Harry in his arms right now. His little boy was here, safe in his arms and he couldn't want anything more.

It took about an hour for Louis to finally accept that they needed to go to bed, Harry more than anyone else due to the fact that it was past eleven at night and harry was only seven. Louis tucked him in and walked back to his room, spotting Zayn sitting on the bed waiting for him. Zayn walked over to him and Louis looked down, trying to avoid eye contact from the uncontrollable guilt he was feeling. Zayn took his face in his hands and looked him right in the eyes.

"Hey, don't do this to yourself". Louis shook his head.

"It's all my fault".

"Lou, you need to stop. Don't blame yourself okay?" Louis shook his head again and looked up into Zayn's eyes.

"How can I not? Zayn I'm failing as a father. Not only that but a role model! I'm supposed to show the boys what is right and what is wrong. I'm the person they look up to yet why can't I even succeed at that? I failed at my relationship with you, I failed at being a father, my company is falling rapidly and I'm failing to even take care of myself I can-" Louis was cut off from Zayn's lips pressed against his and stifled a groan. Zayn pulled away but kept his forehead connected to Louis'.

"You have in no way ruined our relationship. I love you Louis" Louis stared at Zayn with wide eyes as he saw the complete love and honesty filling Zayn's. He couldn't remember the last time someone had said those words with such love and sincerity. It was quite overwhelming for him really. Those words coming from Zayn for some reason made Louis fill with lust, want and maybe a little bit of love. He grabbed the back of Zayn's neck and crashed their lips together, causing Zayn to gasp from Louis' actions but only froze for a millisecond before returning the actions, pulling Louis closer to him with even more need. Louis whimpered as Zayn traced his fingers under the fabric that covered Louis' chest and clung tighter to Zayn whom moved down to kiss Louis' neck softly, looking for that specific spot which he found quickly as Louis gasped. Zayn nibbled down and sucked lightly, marking Louis as his and only his. No one, no man or woman could touch Louis because he was all Zayn's and no one else's.

"Zayn" Louis half whimpered, half moaned as Zayn licked over the fresh bruise and reconnected their lips. Louis pulled at Zayn's T-shirt and removed it quickly before rejoining their swollen, red lips again. Louis looped his fingers in the belt loops of Zayn's jeans and pulled him closer, smiling in the feverish kiss they were both looped in and jumped up to wrap his legs around Zayn's waist as Zayn caught him, squeezing Louis' ass as Louis moaned deeply. He walked over to the bed and gently lay Louis down, crawling over to him and looking into Louis' eyes with concern.

"Are you sure you want this?" Louis frowned, unsure on exactly what to say because he was unsure of himself. He didn't know what he was doing lately. So many things he has regretted in his life. He began to think of the last time he and Zayn had been skin on skin affectionate and he instantly knew he did want this. There was no questioning it anymore. He felt something for Zayn that made the want and need for the man around him daily. He needed Zayn daily right by his side. He felt intact and safe and maybe the boys needed another figure to look up to and talk to when needed. So, he nodded. There was no need for words as Louis' eyes said it all. He really did want this and there was no hiding it. "I love you so much Louis. It happened so quickly but I can't go a second without thinking about you. I can't stand not being able to hold you and kiss you everyday. I need you so much I feel like I can't breathe when I'm not with you. Even if you don't feel so strongly about me, I don't care because in my world you're all that exists" Louis looked into Zayn's eyes in aww not able to form any words from the small speech Zayn just made. It only made him want this more.