Let Me Help You (Zouis)

Chapter 18 (part 2)

Zayn's POV (gasp!)

This can't be happening. I can't lose someone else. This can't be true. I have to be dreaming. Louis isn't hurt. Pete was never there. He couldn't have been. Louis has to be okay. He has to be. I've fallen way too hard for him and losing him will be the end of happiness for me as I know it. I can't do anything without him. It seems to me that pacing around the corridor of the hospital and pulling at my hair is the most calming thing to do right now. To most obvious and sane people, this is the worst way to stay calm. It's been four hours of Louis in surgery and I've heard nothing. Those bastards won't tell me anything no matter how much I yell and huff, or groan or moan...wow...I must be a pain in the ass...

"Excuse me?" A 5 foot something girl with her blonde hair pulled back and a nurses outfit on had a straight face and a warming set of green eyes. "Were you here for Louis Tomlinson?" I nodded my head and gave her a worried glance.

"Please tell me he's okay". She looked down briefly with a small frown and took a deep breath.

"the bullet only just missed his kidney. His condition was very critical and he lost a lot of blood. The surgery was successful but I'm afraid that Mr. Tomlinson has fallen into a coma". My eyes filled with tears and I blinked them down to see again, trying to hold back sobs with my hand but only muffled them. "I'm sorry".

"C-can I see him?" She looked wary and hesitated. "Please?" She nods and leads me to a room that's down the hallway. She opened the door and smiled with sincerity.

"I hope he wakes up soon". I stepped in and rushed to Louis' side, taking his hand in mine and holding it tightly. He has a tube sitting in his mouth and a bunch of machines and wires surrounding him.

"oh god". I choked out and let more tears fall. "Lou I'm so sorry. I can't believe I did this. I can't-..I love you so much. I literally can't live without you. You're my only hope Louis. My life was so messed up before I met you. I never told you this but I've lost someone I loved five years ago. To me he was the love of my life. I thought we would be spending the rest of our lives together. The reason I freaks out so much when I met your friend was because he looked just like him. They had some sort of resemblance that I couldn't handle. His name was Daniel. He was so sweet and the way I found out I was gay. I never even considered it. Not even for a second. I thought that it was wrong and disgusting. That's how I was brought up. My parents dissed me and kicked me out as soon as they knew. I haven't even seen them since. I was fifteen. How sick is that? I had no where to go so my only place was Daniel's. He had told his parents that same day. They were supportive of us. As the days went on the bullying got worse at school. I could handle it but it seemed that it affected Daniel so much more. He was cutting himself. I didn't even know. What kind of a boyfriend was I? I just can't believe I was that clueless. One day he went too far. He left me Lou. He promised we would be together and go through everything together. He just left. I've hated him so much for it ever since but I always had a part of me that didn't. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't want you to leave me too. I love you Louis. So much. I guess I'll try and get a hold of your mum. Don't want your boys to go without a proper adult figure. Please wake up soon. I love you". I kissed his unmoving hand and hesitantly walked out. I hated seeing him like that. So lifeless. Unmoving. I hate it.

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"Mr. Zayn? W-where's dada?" I looked down as Niall's big dough blue eyes and struggled to come up with an answer.

"Hey Niall why don't we go upstairs? Where are your brothers?"

"Okay" he grabbed my hand and pulled me up the stairs, into Liam's room where Harry was playing on the iPad and Liam on his xbox.

"Where's daddy?" Liam now noticed my presence and frowned.

"Have you been crying?"

"I....y-your dad he....Liam can I talk to you?" He nodded and we walked back down stairs to the kitchen. "Y-your dad is in a coma".

"W-what?"

"I'm so sorry. My ex shot him I...it's my fault!" And I'm crying again to a thirteen year old boy.

"N-no it's not". I looked at him in shock and saw the pain in his eyes. "I-it's not your f-fault". I shook my head.

"Don't worry. As s-soon as I get a hold of..L-Louis' mum I'll be gone". Liam surprised me when he wrapped his arms around my waist and cried against my chest. I hesitantly hugged him back and soothingly rubbed his back to try calm him. It was weird being around kids. I definitely was not good with them and they're way too energetic for me. Liam pulled away and wiped his eyes.

"I-I think dad would want you to look after us. C-can we please go see him?" I looked at him in shock as soon as his first words sunk in.

"Wait...you want me to...to look after you?" He shrugged.

"This is mentioned to no one". He motioned between the two of us.

"Let's go see your dad. Harry Niall!" Liam handed me the keys to his fathers car and I buckled Niall into his car seat, making sure Harry had his seatbelt on and began to drive. "Now, boys your dad looks just like he's sleeping. He will wake up soon okay? But don't worry he's okay".

"What happen to dada?"

"He...he fell over Ni. Clumsy isn't he!?" Niall chuckled and clapped his hands together.

"Silly dada!" I side looked to Liam and saw the worried expression. I barely knew how to comfort him so I just reached over and rubbed his knee. He looked up to me and I mouthed "it'll be okay". He just nodded and looked over to the window. I really didn't know what I was doing here. Niall suddenly squealed and I jumped as Liam and Harry chuckled.

"Fwuit sulud yum yum! Fwuit sulud yum yum!" I realised The Wiggles cd was on and turned it up a little for Niall. At least he was happy, right?

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I held Niall tightly in my arms as Liam followed and held Harry's hand. I really wasn't confident with this visit. I can't believe I'm taking these kids to see this.

"Dada sleep?" Niall whispered as soon as he saw Louis.

"Daddy?" Harry rushed over to Louis' side and Liam stood still at the door just staring. I really don't know how I'm going to do this.

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