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Sherlock turned and John fell limply to the floor. Sherlock dashed forward to stop his frined bashing his head on the wooden flooring , but thanks to his hawk like reflexes he manged to prevent this anomaly from happening . He stole one long look at John before scooping him up like a child and carrying up stairs to the flat they had once shared and hopefully will share again in the near future. Sherlock gently laid him onto the sofa and went about tidying up the flat which was in a terrible state. Sherlock looked at John again he could see thick black bags under his eyes from restless night sleep his coves was creased , in fact he hasn't got new ones they look at least 18 months old ' oh John , I'm so sorry' sherlock said almost too loud. A thick growth of hair had grown above his top lip into a what John would call grief musts she . Sherlock felt a pang of guilt in his heart, he did this to the man. He tore him self from johns life. John twitched in his sleep and mutters sherlocks name a fair few time begging him not to go . He tossed and turned ,beads of sweat rolling down his face . Sherlock could hear miss Hudson shifting her weight on the old floor boards and started to come up the stairs ' John' she yelled hoping he would answer , she continued her journey up the stairs . Sherlock knew he had to hide but he was frozen in shock unable to move his muscles . A million things tracking right through his mind a million miles a hour . What shall he do ? Reveal him self to his fellow acquaintances and a few treasured friends or whether away in the homeless net work while watching the people he loves think he was dead. Sherlock has been told a fair few times tht he does not have a heart , but he has enough of a heart to not inflict that in other people . He would not even wish it upon Moriarty . Sherlock could not breath , his chest tightening and his breathing came in quick fast gasps , he was having a panic attack but since he had been without John who was his rock , his doctor to his rosé he had been having these attacks more often than not . Then as soon as it started he slowed his heart down to a healthy pace and stepped into the shadows.